i dont want.

i dont want to move on.

teachings

life goes on. with or without you.
as sad as it is
accept it, and life is much better, much lighter for you
refuse to believe the reality will only lead you to nowhere.
constant sometime lead to stagnation

hello

i want to say hello and good morning, to you. :)

things happened, and we get lost, sometimes

i think its like i am moving aimlessly.

need to reset, plan ahead and move forward.

i like to think, i like to hope. this is who i am. but to hope without action plan is to hope to fail.

so i need to carve out my objectives, my actions to achieve the objectives and execute!

sounds easy but definitely it is not.

need to really plan, plan, plan.
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other news:
tried whoppy pie. normal nia.

was hoping tricia can take me as a protege... haha.

have to work on a sunday for stock take.

talked to chong more on the personal side, which i felt really good.

Happy birthday Yukky!

flying to Beijing and Shanghai with Wei Mei and Nancy. woot!

weekend plans - collect medical report and helpout at ACS.

famous last words

i can relate to this too.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bbTtPL1jRs

another slow day

i get panicked/anxiety now and then. trying to catch o2.

just another day....

dreamblog

we walked down the place. it feels like Bukit kiara type... I think the first time we went down I was like controlling  some kind of bike and was doing those extreme stunt freestyle with the slope... quite dangerous and exhilarating.

after. reaching down Carolyn cm and I we walked towards the room. we passed the back alley, the swimming pool. and bar when I realised I forgot the luggages. I. offered to take it with cm. while Carolyn just wait for us at the hotel.

cm. Got. a. hold. of my wallet and was wanting me to buy another round of drink /meal, to which I find very frustrating and angry because I have treated for a few times now and I was not willing.

Then we made our journey back up to the car park.

Then we walk pass this place full of animals in a cage like exhibition (like in zoo got birds)

it was Alicia, cm and me. Then,  something stuck to me.. like a kid or something and they help to removed it. I somehow just paste the kid. onto a white fur coat and said that not my problem now.. Alicia wasn't too happy with the way I handle it.

before that was something to do with nagoya mee place with. Hl. or. so.. and Alicia and I kinda fought

in the end, Kaufu ordered hamburger land which is the biggest burger with erdinger. hs ordered paulaner dark.
I ask hs if we eating here or tapau zither to hs it is no brainer we eat here. the reason I asked as because we were supposed to tapau for jojo

Then Alicia prompt me to ask. them cream. or no cream. Kaufu said I decide.

we were queuing, Alicia and I. She was in this teal turquoise dress, thick type of material with her sling handbag. She was pushing a supermarket trolley. She mentioned what she wants... and then "ah well, I love you anyway." 
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i woke up. very sweet dream which I know it couldn't be true. but bittersweet. :)

bitter

I am. bitter now...

I. try to think of the positives but it is not easy.

ending rs when in long distance really Sucks because u can't do your best do alter things

pulling yourself together

I understand it has to be this way because I pushed.

I just wished you would say hi

I miss everything.....  and that I cannot get a formal. goodbye.

haih

I mean. I am. happy that you know what you want.

I hate that you won't care for me as what we were and in a way, forcing me to do the same as well,  because you do mean something to me, at least you still, at this moment now.  and I hate that it will change.

I also hate that you are annoyed by me.

:(

fits in

life goes on

understanding 500 days of summer


move on.

this is not easy...

I am struggling to find out what I should do.... and in return I am struggling to think, to do.

Not the end!

I really strongly feel there can be more to this!

Pls. Don't let go.... Not yet..