memories

:)  oh beijing

runrunrun

running tmr. 12km. try to do. a better timing... or at least consistent running...
should do more. mental training

follow natstory

natstory on YouTube. quite interesting lah. wonder what she works as....start work at 10+...syok

Dream

Dreamt about you.

The place seems familiar though I don't think it exist. More likely that I have dreamt about the place before. We been here before. In another dream.  This time however I was here with my friends. But I saw you. You were there with your sister.

You look beautiful in your dress. Somehow each time I see you, you wore a different dress... A recall of those I have seen you wear before.

I try to avoid you but stalk you at the same time, you didn't notice. There was a shop selling plants and gardening stuffs, a cafe with coffee and cakes and some other shops. The setting is somewhat Australian ish feel.
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Anyway when we were leaving, we finally  met but we didn't say anything to each other. You laugh at calvin /Ks calling you Noob.

End

Should I?

Merry Christmas Alicia :)

Time time

Time flies and I am. Okay now.

Reality is Alicia broke up with  me and I have accepted it. Or at least I think so.

Got into a car accident yesterday as well. No car for two weeks

Went out lunch with Ks and cm to seafood  noodle in kj. Ks shared story about the video he watched regarding about this monk from Taiwan who can predict you life and what's wrong with you in terms of health and so forth.

Going gym Later with cm Ks and chew., if chew come.... Haha

Going for a run tmr.

Hopefully can catch movie later or something...

almost two months

i cannot believe that it has already been two months.

my heart is lighter now. i no longer think as much as i did before. but still.

everything is like back to what it was before i met her. like the past one year or so, was just a dream.

to recap and remember everything that happened in between then and now, this very moment.

i have accepted that things and people changed, whether they want to or not. perhaps this is not what she wants as well but this is what she needs to do, for her and myself. this is the decision she needs to make to progress.

feelings changed. you cannot blame anyone or find fault.

people changed. even i changed from this. i realised in a greater manner that how destructive my temper can be. i just find it amazing that i stopped playing game so much, to some extent, i am losing interest. the taste and passion for it, it does not appear within me.

acceptance, tolerance and resolution.

accept that things and people happened and that holding on is only suffering. let go and embrace the change. welcome the new and cherish the old.

to give more than you can. to consider and think of others and understand their perspective. then to give in when the things do not matter. and things should not matter.

to decide what you need to be a better person, physically and mentally. to find the ingredients and goals you need to 'complete' yourself. to take action to strive towards collecting the materials and moving closer to the end goal.



i wanted to talk to you. but like what nick said. we arent closed anymore, which is sad. but thats part of living. people come in and out like seasons... from Kanye.

i dont want.

i dont want to move on.

teachings

life goes on. with or without you.
as sad as it is
accept it, and life is much better, much lighter for you
refuse to believe the reality will only lead you to nowhere.
constant sometime lead to stagnation

hello

i want to say hello and good morning, to you. :)

things happened, and we get lost, sometimes

i think its like i am moving aimlessly.

need to reset, plan ahead and move forward.

i like to think, i like to hope. this is who i am. but to hope without action plan is to hope to fail.

so i need to carve out my objectives, my actions to achieve the objectives and execute!

sounds easy but definitely it is not.

need to really plan, plan, plan.
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other news:
tried whoppy pie. normal nia.

was hoping tricia can take me as a protege... haha.

have to work on a sunday for stock take.

talked to chong more on the personal side, which i felt really good.

Happy birthday Yukky!

flying to Beijing and Shanghai with Wei Mei and Nancy. woot!

weekend plans - collect medical report and helpout at ACS.

famous last words

i can relate to this too.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bbTtPL1jRs

another slow day

i get panicked/anxiety now and then. trying to catch o2.

just another day....

dreamblog

we walked down the place. it feels like Bukit kiara type... I think the first time we went down I was like controlling  some kind of bike and was doing those extreme stunt freestyle with the slope... quite dangerous and exhilarating.

after. reaching down Carolyn cm and I we walked towards the room. we passed the back alley, the swimming pool. and bar when I realised I forgot the luggages. I. offered to take it with cm. while Carolyn just wait for us at the hotel.

cm. Got. a. hold. of my wallet and was wanting me to buy another round of drink /meal, to which I find very frustrating and angry because I have treated for a few times now and I was not willing.

Then we made our journey back up to the car park.

Then we walk pass this place full of animals in a cage like exhibition (like in zoo got birds)

it was Alicia, cm and me. Then,  something stuck to me.. like a kid or something and they help to removed it. I somehow just paste the kid. onto a white fur coat and said that not my problem now.. Alicia wasn't too happy with the way I handle it.

before that was something to do with nagoya mee place with. Hl. or. so.. and Alicia and I kinda fought

in the end, Kaufu ordered hamburger land which is the biggest burger with erdinger. hs ordered paulaner dark.
I ask hs if we eating here or tapau zither to hs it is no brainer we eat here. the reason I asked as because we were supposed to tapau for jojo

Then Alicia prompt me to ask. them cream. or no cream. Kaufu said I decide.

we were queuing, Alicia and I. She was in this teal turquoise dress, thick type of material with her sling handbag. She was pushing a supermarket trolley. She mentioned what she wants... and then "ah well, I love you anyway." 
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i woke up. very sweet dream which I know it couldn't be true. but bittersweet. :)

bitter

I am. bitter now...

I. try to think of the positives but it is not easy.

ending rs when in long distance really Sucks because u can't do your best do alter things

pulling yourself together

I understand it has to be this way because I pushed.

I just wished you would say hi

I miss everything.....  and that I cannot get a formal. goodbye.

haih

I mean. I am. happy that you know what you want.

I hate that you won't care for me as what we were and in a way, forcing me to do the same as well,  because you do mean something to me, at least you still, at this moment now.  and I hate that it will change.

I also hate that you are annoyed by me.

:(

fits in

life goes on

understanding 500 days of summer


move on.

this is not easy...

I am struggling to find out what I should do.... and in return I am struggling to think, to do.

Not the end!

I really strongly feel there can be more to this!

Pls. Don't let go.... Not yet..

I do

lisa loeb s I do. perhaps it is a song that you can relate to.