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> I've heard abour your plan of returning to Malaysia IMMEDIATELY after your > graduation. Well, will you let us know why you are not planning to stay in> Australia ato find job to get a few years experience before returning to MY?
Why? Because I prefer to work in Malaysia than here. I prefer staying and living in Malaysia than anywhere else at this moment. My frens are going back and I really want to work back in KL as well. If i really want the experience, I will come back or work abroad in other countries next time.

> Do you know working in Australia is a privledge that a lot of other> Malaysians have no opportunity of doing so.
So? I never ask for this opportunity. I am grateful but it is not what I want. i am not one of that many Malaysians who seek this priviledge.

> I've found a website that http://mycareer.com.au that have online job> search. I took the time to find a few jobs that may suitable for you. > Please at least take a look at them because I spent my very busy time to > find them for you. You probably have more time than I do, so when you do,> try to search and see what you find. >

I do have a lot of time and I can find it myself and I DID find myself works in Australia for this semester to apply. I applied for many jobs but I haven't heard anything back. Dad thinks that it is an issue with my resume, which I've checked with career counselors and employment service officer. It is a standard template which you can actually find from the internet. So there is no issue with my resume. I am and will look for more jobs tomoro for this semester.

I never asked you to look for me or spend your very busy time to do this, which I am grateful. Thanks but you can use your free time on your busy needs. I appreciate it but at the same time, I don't need it. I am finding jobs and if you think it is my fault that I am not getting one.. then maybe it is

> Don't be like a stone head (stubborn another word). You must think for your> OWN future. Working in Malaysia is very very not worth (unless you got a> reason to give us). People are surviving on day to day basis with their > little small salary and a HIGH living expenses - cars, food, rent and> others. We can give you guidance but you have to listen.

Why are you saying that Malaysia is the worst place in the work to work? Have you work there before? How high is the living expenses, compared to Melbourne, Brisbane and Sydney? Even if it is a hard day-to-day work, I would like to take that as an experience.

I DO think about my OWN future. Like you said, its my OWN future and i OWN it. I am stubborn. I have the right to choose what I want to do, whether I will regret it or not, I regret it by choice. This is what I want for my future. You can give me guidance, yes. It is up to me to accept your guidance or not. Please don't push me to do something I don't want. You and dad have been doing that since I finished high school. I agree that some of the guidance you provide are good, but at the same time, I do regret not doing things that I wanted more. Like now, I do regret not doing ALevels and having the choice of going to UK or US, which is what I wanted more. But its okay, everything is an experience. I can't feel sad about my choice to Australia because I wouldn't know how would it be like in UK or US. Same thing here, Malaysia might not be good, but I'll never know till I try it out. I might make mistakes, but thats where I can learn about myself more.

> Sometimes they ask for experience, but during the interview if you can show> them that you are willing to learn and you learn fast, they will definitely> consider you. Also that you work with AISEC (i think wront spellin), is > consider as experience. 1.5 years you've been with this organization I> believe and those counts!!!!> > OK, I gotta go, spent about 40 mins looking around the site for the jobs. > Please look at them. Thanks.

No, I won't look at them as I am not planning to stay here after graduation!

So what if its work experience abroad, earning alot more money than here? Those are important but to me now, what I want now is important to me. I may earn alot but I won't be happy staying here. Not now. Its my life and I feel that I need to start making my own choices, this is where I start.

I have my own plans to travel and do work exchange next year, or maybe apply to work as Malaysia MC for AIESEC, in a part time role and work part time as well. I don't think that I will be looking for an actual graduate job when I go back. I want to work some odd jobs and save up some money before I go on exchange in the mid-year. I really want to visit other countries next year as I think that it is a good time to do so.

i never tell you all any of these because i expect your reaction would be to discourage me. i don't like that because everytime you all do that, i give up. i don't want that to happen anymore. so what if I can't give you good reasons to stay in KL (because a rational person will pick the money, i choose the values i seek) , so what if my future is still blurry now (i have options, but I haven't decided on which one), it is something i want. please.


I need you all to let this go and be supportive for once at least. I want to go back to Malaysia. If it is really that bad, at least I've experienced it and I am satisfied. I won't regret it because it is what I want. No matter how great Australia is, thats not what I want now. I know you all want the best for me, but maybe thats not what I want.

If I stay here I know I will regret and keep wondering for the rest of life how my life would have been different if I moved back...

I am happy and looking foward to go back to KL. I can see my friends, food, life. I can travel around to places I have yet to visit. I can see my australian friends coming to visit me and taking them around, eating food. I see myself having so much to offer to any companies that i work with in KL. I feel so much more confident and comfort. I value these things much more than what high income can give me. These are things that money can't buy.

And in the end, if you earn a lot of money, and you are not happy with your life, whats the point?