that feeling

That you do all you can, do your best and you do won't get what you want. 

In fact, if anything, the more you put in an effort, the more it tries to get away from you, avoid you.

And you learn you got no choice but to give it up, for the better happiness. And even so, your heartaches so badly.

You want to cling on to every ounce of hope you can find, but at the same time you just want to let go. You want to hear the rejection so you can officially stop doing it.

Hurts so badly.