runrunrun

running tmr. 12km. try to do. a better timing... or at least consistent running...
should do more. mental training

follow natstory

natstory on YouTube. quite interesting lah. wonder what she works as....start work at 10+...syok

Dream

Dreamt about you.

The place seems familiar though I don't think it exist. More likely that I have dreamt about the place before. We been here before. In another dream.  This time however I was here with my friends. But I saw you. You were there with your sister.

You look beautiful in your dress. Somehow each time I see you, you wore a different dress... A recall of those I have seen you wear before.

I try to avoid you but stalk you at the same time, you didn't notice. There was a shop selling plants and gardening stuffs, a cafe with coffee and cakes and some other shops. The setting is somewhat Australian ish feel.
I
Anyway when we were leaving, we finally  met but we didn't say anything to each other. You laugh at calvin /Ks calling you Noob.

End

Should I?

Merry Christmas Alicia :)

Time time

Time flies and I am. Okay now.

Reality is Alicia broke up with  me and I have accepted it. Or at least I think so.

Got into a car accident yesterday as well. No car for two weeks

Went out lunch with Ks and cm to seafood  noodle in kj. Ks shared story about the video he watched regarding about this monk from Taiwan who can predict you life and what's wrong with you in terms of health and so forth.

Going gym Later with cm Ks and chew., if chew come.... Haha

Going for a run tmr.

Hopefully can catch movie later or something...

almost two months

i cannot believe that it has already been two months.

my heart is lighter now. i no longer think as much as i did before. but still.

everything is like back to what it was before i met her. like the past one year or so, was just a dream.

to recap and remember everything that happened in between then and now, this very moment.

i have accepted that things and people changed, whether they want to or not. perhaps this is not what she wants as well but this is what she needs to do, for her and myself. this is the decision she needs to make to progress.

feelings changed. you cannot blame anyone or find fault.

people changed. even i changed from this. i realised in a greater manner that how destructive my temper can be. i just find it amazing that i stopped playing game so much, to some extent, i am losing interest. the taste and passion for it, it does not appear within me.

acceptance, tolerance and resolution.

accept that things and people happened and that holding on is only suffering. let go and embrace the change. welcome the new and cherish the old.

to give more than you can. to consider and think of others and understand their perspective. then to give in when the things do not matter. and things should not matter.

to decide what you need to be a better person, physically and mentally. to find the ingredients and goals you need to 'complete' yourself. to take action to strive towards collecting the materials and moving closer to the end goal.



i wanted to talk to you. but like what nick said. we arent closed anymore, which is sad. but thats part of living. people come in and out like seasons... from Kanye.

i dont want.

i dont want to move on.

teachings

life goes on. with or without you.
as sad as it is
accept it, and life is much better, much lighter for you
refuse to believe the reality will only lead you to nowhere.
constant sometime lead to stagnation

hello

i want to say hello and good morning, to you. :)

things happened, and we get lost, sometimes

i think its like i am moving aimlessly.

need to reset, plan ahead and move forward.

i like to think, i like to hope. this is who i am. but to hope without action plan is to hope to fail.

so i need to carve out my objectives, my actions to achieve the objectives and execute!

sounds easy but definitely it is not.

need to really plan, plan, plan.
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other news:
tried whoppy pie. normal nia.

was hoping tricia can take me as a protege... haha.

have to work on a sunday for stock take.

talked to chong more on the personal side, which i felt really good.

Happy birthday Yukky!

flying to Beijing and Shanghai with Wei Mei and Nancy. woot!

weekend plans - collect medical report and helpout at ACS.

famous last words

i can relate to this too.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8bbTtPL1jRs

another slow day

i get panicked/anxiety now and then. trying to catch o2.

just another day....

dreamblog

we walked down the place. it feels like Bukit kiara type... I think the first time we went down I was like controlling  some kind of bike and was doing those extreme stunt freestyle with the slope... quite dangerous and exhilarating.

after. reaching down Carolyn cm and I we walked towards the room. we passed the back alley, the swimming pool. and bar when I realised I forgot the luggages. I. offered to take it with cm. while Carolyn just wait for us at the hotel.

cm. Got. a. hold. of my wallet and was wanting me to buy another round of drink /meal, to which I find very frustrating and angry because I have treated for a few times now and I was not willing.

Then we made our journey back up to the car park.

Then we walk pass this place full of animals in a cage like exhibition (like in zoo got birds)

it was Alicia, cm and me. Then,  something stuck to me.. like a kid or something and they help to removed it. I somehow just paste the kid. onto a white fur coat and said that not my problem now.. Alicia wasn't too happy with the way I handle it.

before that was something to do with nagoya mee place with. Hl. or. so.. and Alicia and I kinda fought

in the end, Kaufu ordered hamburger land which is the biggest burger with erdinger. hs ordered paulaner dark.
I ask hs if we eating here or tapau zither to hs it is no brainer we eat here. the reason I asked as because we were supposed to tapau for jojo

Then Alicia prompt me to ask. them cream. or no cream. Kaufu said I decide.

we were queuing, Alicia and I. She was in this teal turquoise dress, thick type of material with her sling handbag. She was pushing a supermarket trolley. She mentioned what she wants... and then "ah well, I love you anyway." 
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i woke up. very sweet dream which I know it couldn't be true. but bittersweet. :)

bitter

I am. bitter now...

I. try to think of the positives but it is not easy.

ending rs when in long distance really Sucks because u can't do your best do alter things

pulling yourself together

I understand it has to be this way because I pushed.

I just wished you would say hi

I miss everything.....  and that I cannot get a formal. goodbye.

haih

I mean. I am. happy that you know what you want.

I hate that you won't care for me as what we were and in a way, forcing me to do the same as well,  because you do mean something to me, at least you still, at this moment now.  and I hate that it will change.

I also hate that you are annoyed by me.

:(

fits in

life goes on

understanding 500 days of summer


move on.

this is not easy...

I am struggling to find out what I should do.... and in return I am struggling to think, to do.

Not the end!

I really strongly feel there can be more to this!

Pls. Don't let go.... Not yet..

I do

lisa loeb s I do. perhaps it is a song that you can relate to.

Fu (edited)

lost my car keys at the park.

took keys out of pocket. left it in floor. Then forgot abt it. When I go back.. gone

edited:
we went back to the park after breakfast at Yong len. I asked the guard if anyone found car keys. He said no. I decided to go back to the scene and find... nada.

When I go back to the car, which was parked near the guard. the guard asked me what car and I said it is myvi... and voila! someone just returned to the guard, when I was searching for the keys!

thank you stranger!

I know I can

I know I can be a better person.

one month bring it on!

I won't give up, yet

in theory as long as there is still. a chance, no matter how small. I should. give it a go... that will be a beautiful end.

I. will. wait and see how things go when you are back.

;)

I dont agree

I dont agree with how we should do this but I don't know if keep talking would help.

taking chances

adjusting

it is weird that I see you but we aren't talking to each other, at least for a day now. never thought it would be like this.

it is not easy at the moment, hopefully I will be better at this.

hopefully we will be better too.

as you as you get

who determines how good your day can be? ONLY YOU.

watched promised land and robot and frank. both are good movies.

i would recommend robot and frank as a family movie, whereas promised land is more for those who are CSR type of person.

Still enjoy what I do

writing is one of the many ways I used to express myself. I still enjoy it but I don't do it anymore....  work and other interests took most of my time away from learning to improve on my expression

i m now waiting for Carolyn...  told her I am gonna pick her at 730, but now sudah 8am, and still waiting.... 

later will go brunch with aileen then bg with the guys

maybe we can chat sometime today? it's been awhile.....  :)

what will be will be.

hope and als

ALS Ice Bucket challenge is working well to raise the awareness

I have hope.

75

aim to go 70!

runs in two weeks' time. can i do it?

Pressure

Just because you never manage your time and you agreed to Webcam, now you said I m pressuring you by asking you for a time to Webcam? Is my time catered to you?

You

Just because you didn't hear it doesn't make it "not a big deal"

So what....what if I am on my way home already? Then what?

It is how I see it that you should take into consideration and make you feel that you should care about it more than how you did.

Dream

I dont even rmb everything but it was about a wedding and resurrection. I died and was given chance to come back alive, and I had to work for it to turn visible, or human...

I. Don't like why but there were five of us. Nick me hl Calvin ks I think... In a car sitting and chatting and somehow we parted ways before leaving. And somehow, I died. We bought some food like roti canai and some kaya food. They didn't go to Sabah after that.

Even before the above we were. Almost like playing dota kind of thing,

But when I was back alive I was a different being. It was like traveling to see someone I m close with, and her wedding. We were travelling without knowing where are we heading and I wanted to take a picture of the road name Jalan lat and Jalan nak for Alicia to see her surname and stuff but I couldn't as each time the sign appears too fast for me to snap a photo. We ended up driving towards Jalan nak and when we open our map we realised we will never make it on time as it was already at night and we need to pass the mountain to reach the place, even though on map itself it's probably just across a small water space from the sea as it is basically another shore from where we were.

Before the above happened there was this part where this being was told that she needs to eat more of this thing the villagers used as part of their walls (looks like some dry purple grass). The more she eat the more beautiful she became.

When we reach nobody could see or hear us until we said something familiar and then everyone saw us and we sat down and talk. There were some malay friends whom was talking. One of them, who used to bride was talking about how he had done his work and that she is no longer his responsibility. She was mad to hear this and kept kicking him furiously. But he did not respond and to him, it does not seem painful. I forgot who was the gal but her face was very unhappy with his words. He was saying something like he is now part off a drawf and no longer can protect her.

I also remember and animal part where we there was this sad donkey who couldn't read and was treating the villagers really nice but yet the villagers fooled him when they erected signs which disclaim his ownership or help last time and statue of him which according to other friends of his, is very ugly. It basically a half face with the north side open type of statue /entrance gate thing. It was odd when the donkey took a photo of himself standing inside the mouth of his own statue

I don't remember wat happened but I died again. This time nobody can see me and everyone was moving on with life. I see my big sis asking me to eat chocolate which was sort of engraved with my name. I saw my own "death plate", detailing in loving memory.... Of my name and so on. I can see it was written dead.
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Dream ends and I woke up. I was sleeping 180 degree terbalik. I felt I need to write this down as maybe mom wanted me to understand the meaning of life and how precious it is that when it's gone you want it back so badly but nobody could see you anymore, and there's the reincarnation part and how u need to work it to come back as human.

Shoutout

I wanna say thanks to the guy, random stranger, who asked me to run when I was Damn tired and stopped running.

Thanks to him I ran for another 5-8 km

Misinterpretation

So jo jo me kaufu and hs went to meet Chris for dimsum at grand imperial. We went to Ou. before turn into parking, kaufu asker whether grand imperial in Ou or bsc.
We called and realised that Chris was heading to bsc whereas jojo booked Ou. Haha we ended up having brunch at monte cos couldn't get table at bsc's grand imperial

Emo

Y I get so emotional abt the things u do...... Hate being emotional

:(

Shirlik u really..... Today is the day u tell me everything I am not sure if I need to know or not

Youuuuuuuu

Why I let u dictate how I feel? Lol

Just tell me la. Tell me what u think and all and be honest with me. Maybe I will understand and make the choice u wanted ??

meaningless

when u think more about others, u ll feel how insignificant our lives really is and things that we feel it matter shouldnt.

hence i felt the urge to give more...

ou zhen yu

fish leong's new song somehow reminds me of pocahantas. the rhythm.

the song fills me with emotions...

Thinking....0f u

:) things we do for ppl we care? :)

romcom

i wanna go with her... but i dont mind to go with others if she doesnt want to go.. but seem so bad though, finding another as a backup... but go alone meh? :(

It felt... so different

Felt more than a year but its not, only almost a year

Felt more than months but its only been a month plus

Felt its over but still I m not losing hope.

Felt I want to see out others but actually I don't really want to, not much.

What the ump just happened?!?

I m more lost than ever!

Vtroubled when I shouldn't be. Likely is because of the approach.

because i do not want to forget.

this gotta be one of the better weekends i had. dinner with wyf/tws/cch/lkc on friday night, followed by a 2hr chat with cch.

sat morning tried x-com & play games with ccw, b4 drinking boost & cut hair. then, ran 10km marathon. achieved my target. :D ate fried rice+sweet sour pork.

sun: curry puff for breakfast > nasi kerabu frm kelatan frm wsl, futsal, scored a goal! (my first i believed), assisted another. ate siu yuk, ate popiah for dinner, collected my cookies made by tricia. tricia made smoothie for me also! came back. more popiah. awesome. later, movie with carolyn!

this is an awesome weekend indeed!

More kiasu than ever

Running more for the fear of being outrun!

Registered fr another two more runs this year

Abit sad lah

I want to MSG and ask u how was it but it seems too pushy.... And not my place to ask, even though I want to ask....

:(

Korea: Going home

This is probably the last 3 hours in Korea. I have been here for the last six days with Chee Meng Tricia Kaseong shin yee and Peifern. I enjoyed the time even though most of the things did not go as good as they could have been.

I wonder how it will be like at work place tmr. Haha everything back to normal. I bought a lot of gifts and ordered goods. Spent a lot on transportation and food. For myself, I think I only bringing back memories and a Nanta tshirt and a pair of metal chopsticks.

Missed out on silkworm.
Best food? Prolly the simple egg toast

73!

it seems i have reached my lowest weight in years! :D

Best dream

She sent me an email and it explains why she was occupied yday and then the endin of the email was a video clip of her going up an escalator in an outdoor shopping mall

meaning of my name... 5-7yrs ago

http://joeyk86.blogspot.com/2004/12/catherines-site-is-sooo-cool-cos-of.html

so true that its really... WOW. haha


i think everyone who used to blogs stopped blogging since twitter and facebook.

anyway.

you just have to wait to appreciate

a friend gave me a bulk of songs awhile ago (Few months). honestly, i didnt listen to all of them at once and i find it like forcing it down.... i listened to some , trying hard to like it then but i find it difficult to accept.

today, i chose to listen to some of the songs again and realised how good they were. :)

sometimes, putting the things aside for awhile, go away, then come back, would make the things look much more beautiful.

;)

Building pieces

I lost my meaning/goal in life recently. The past two days made me feel better. Tmr may give me more inspiration and guidance, but I really néed to push myself more

I got to learn to be patient to chase for things I want in life :)

Lost money

Mahjong, enjoyed but lose money hahaha.

Nose bleed

My nose bleed yday cos I sneeze too hard.

in life

in life there are times when you reach a point thinking whether is it worth going on? heading down this road that you are not sure where it will lead you to, and at the same time you know that you are likely to endure a lot of "suffering" and challenges down this road.

in life. i think simply put,do things that you dont regret at that point in time.

in hindsight though, i felt there are things i shouldnt have done or could be done in a better way (means that my thought process at that point in time was poor)

i just think that i am sure of what i am doing and know what i want.

positiveness ! :D

26/9/12

29/8/2012

A day to forget.

kiva

www.kiva.org

its a start. a new start. meaningful i hope.

one day i just thought about how much more meaningful life could be. this is one of the ways i think i could make it so.

Never let go!

Bryan Adams songs always so inspiring~~~

I won't be giving up yet!

Fragile

Haih! I want to know but I don't want to force it. So I can pAtiently wait but my hope is fading as things took a turn?

Cannot

Sleep yet!!!

Adelaide 2012

Last day here: recap:
Day 1 - Monday - ate Bo bing (Chinese popiah) seems like got good market here, could probably do the same in KL perhaps? Then walked myself to North Adelaide and back. Passed by my uni looks so diff now. Went to old AIESEC office, changed too but somethings still there eg brazil flag, map, some furniture and the cabinets.

Day 2 - met up with Faith

Day 3 - met up with Aleks, bought some presents

Day 4 - visited port Adelaide dolphin cruise

Day 5 - visited whispering wall, Tunanda, Maggie Beer Farm, Jacob's creek and ate some middle Asia cuisine for dinner. Bought a wine called Sangiovese, a Cabernet paste from Maggie beer and enjoyed the wine tasting at Jacobs. ;)

Was very sleepy

Until u chat with me. I m all up! Haha thank you.

first 10km

my leg want to break liao but it was great feeling! at the end i was really pushing myself (though i ended up walking, but i did run at few points!)

haha.. next run, bring it on!

marathon and life.

i am going for a 10km run this Sunday. Its going to be awesome! I think its a test to see how can i cope with the run. I've been jogging alot lately... I think my stamina increased, but still, whether I can make the 10.8km run in time is still another thing to consider. anyways... hopefully my training would suffice for me to reach the end line within 90minutes.

i am jobless. but meeting alot of friends recently. will meet even more... i ll be even travelling to aussie... awesome time.. i hope. :) time to catch up with people and all.. though of course, i dont know who to ask out... and I dont really want to get i ntouch with poeple and end up not having much to say... :$ i dont like fake chats. haha.

anyway.
=) this week was certainly interesting to somewhat extent.. :D

nothings ever promise tomorrow today.

hurts but it may be the only way.

i am collecting my gifts. again for charity water but with a higher goal set out this year :)

planning my trip to aussie now...

mhmm

been jogging more than usual (but weight remains relatively the same). felt my stamina gone up, but i think the main obstacle is still the mental block.... hope everything turns out OK next week! ^_^

i joined the std chart marathon with Calvin, CheeMeng and Tricia. target? just wanna finish the race within given time!

Day out

Went out last night with robbie, Katherine, Aaron, devern and Carolyn. I wanted to take them to pj area but we ended up hanging ard kl instead. At first me and Robbie went to hutong, where I showed him the ghee Hiang biscuits. We had pork ball noodles. Later when everyone arrived, we went for mamak before we ordered a 3l asahi, of which I drank 3 glasses. It was alot to me. This morning I took them to publika for some food, then ttdi for cendol, before we drove to klang for Bkt. Unfortunately, the Bkt we went for, most of the things were out of stock. Hmm then we went for massage, I had Thai. Really interesting experience (my first time In kl). Now I m in airport with robbie, sending him off... Bon voyage!

Tanno-San

Very coincidently I met him In a monorail!

U

:) thank you for your time and company . Enjoyed every moment. felt so different everytime, sometime so hopeless and sometimes so closed I can almost reach it.

Stars

Today stars' not very bright

Leaving

I am going to miss so many ppl that I am leaving behind. Some, as close as we are, we may not meet again anymore. It's not that we don't want to, we just do not have that common activity to do so. Some are still okay as we may still able to go out, if they call me out, that is...

I never thought the emotions and friendships made will be so strong and so close. I may even regret leaving them! But of course, ppl move on and working together should nt be the thing that keeps us together. If we are close, no matter where we are, it doesn't change that. :)

I hope to see everyone From office again sometime, somewhere, somehow. ;)

Bo lui

Quit d no savings wo?!? Omg .¥+

weekend~kk

watched The Soul of Bread (愛的麵包魂) and Dark flight over the weekend.

enjoyed the first, meaningful story.. was thinking of dling the song la vien en rose~ will see how... haha still trying to find the right cover... i think the original is too old for us to appreciate.

anyway, big decision tomorrow i think, but its about time right? time time time~

Today in my life

Yday played wonders and resistance. Resistance really not bad everyone even cat seemed quite into it.

This morning was supposed to go hiking but due to the rain, Yukky Adeline and myself went to antipodean for some English breakfast! It's really good, worth the wait (we waited abt 15 minutes for a table)

We also bought lottery the no? 1111 *fingers crossed!

Then send Yukky back home and go back and rest. Along the way I dropped her at pudu to collect something fr her friend. She bought her iphone car charger and mats for her myvi. I ended up buying wiper for my car :)

Demotivated

Lazy to work. Zzzz lack of umph to perform my responsibilities. Help!

Should be good

Kai ma pai kai yeh, I pai mummy and kammo pai bohboh. So many ppl I think they must be having a good time. First time I pok the 20c mom already reach (usually take me a few times one)

Three of the tables are ours Ahahhaa

Can you believe ?

I visited zoo Lipis. The animals are quite sad and living condition is horrible!! Planning to call that zoo icac...

Improvement!

My stupid brain tells myself that things are getting better. Are they?

Illusion or closer to success?

Sometimes do I think too much?or there is something to think abt?

I said it

Regret? Not really kua now. But have to have a lot of faith lo. Difficult! But I can! Haha

Relationships

Why is it so difficult ? Haih: the thought of going into one is wonderful but to maintain it takes alot.

Scared?

I think this is it. To do any more is to change/-//:

i gave it already~ :D

haha..

the reply was.. better than expected~ :)

though i have to say the gift... in hindsight.. maybe could be better~

~~!~@!#@$@$!212

work tmr when its public holiday

worked two days which are public holidays next week.

~!!!!

and client's accs still nt ready. OMG

Buttbrator

What u get when u put ur phone in ur pants' back pocket and u sit down, and the alarm starts to ring

Not good

I am definitely AWFUL when it comes to making conversation with someone I like. Not good. Not good at all.

One more day

Wanted to buy new shirt but decided not to as I may not need it until my next job!

It's just a Lil weird that I do grocery shopping, at tesco? At my age and my gender, who goes here at this time of day and season ?? Lol

Last stop now at ikea. Well, not exactly last stop. Will go buy cd and maybe books later. Then juice works. Then home!!

what i said today to make myself feel better

sometimes

u think too much

then u worry alot

then when u worry , you forgot the purpose

so just now i thought back of my purpose

so i worry less

so i feel better

Ou always changing

The entrance to the new wing is different than before. Seems like everytime I come here nowadays there always some new improvement to this place. Shopping for aunties ^^

Few more days?

Hopefully can go back home jo! I wanna play my computer games hahah, meet up with ccw and watch ghost protocol!!

Relationship

To like someone or to love someone may be as troublesome as having someone to like or love you.

If you have both at the same time
But with different person, what should you do?

You cannot stop someone from having feelings for you, but at the same time, are you willing to sacrifice what you want so that another person get what she/he wants ?

I hate it. :(

It's not worth it

Sigh!

Me

I saw that one Facebook post and made me thought about alot of things, well not alot, just one. And I cannot do much since I am away from kl now. I hate my work now. I've changed, I think. Better or worse? I dont know. I just know that I have a lot of work on hand and I do not have the motivation to finish all these works within the given timeline.

Life

Is soooo short.

Chloes Woo

Joo Yee KeeChloes Woo

why isit chloeS? lol

Chloes Woo realise more and more ppl with the name chloe ma...so add a S to make it special lor...knot meh?

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Joo Yee Kee so lame la

a few seconds ago ·

Joo Yee Kee hahahahahahaaha

a few seconds ago ·

Chloes Woo it's a silent S anyway...so dun make much difference :p

a few seconds ago ·

Joo Yee Kee O.O silent s

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i miss blogging

yap. i do.

i love to write. i miss it.

hmm

so uncertain

big changes about to happen??

i m losing $$$$ in the market.. hahaha.

weekend going to PD for "annual trip"

had an interesting past 2 weeks. been working on a job with some japanese - ishihara, sugimasa, suzuki and tanno

went to cambodia for the first time... met PR girls for the time

i think i didnt learn much about auditing.. but maybe a bit on internal control

we went to cambodia for 2 nights, meeting some "big shots" over there, the directors of the company who themselves are not "ordinary" ppl... came back... then travelled to penang and perak with them also..

i like to take ppl out to see my country..(more country than city)

met up with dinisha and beeling yday... thanks to yiyee..

haha

fissshhh!

my chiangmai videos! all deleted cos' i thought i transferred the files but i didnt, only the photos!! (unlike the previous one, lx5 separate the videos and pictures.. so.. :( )

i lost

elephant shitting in river

elephant nose wheeler!

mmm maybe some odd videos here and there...

scenery of cambodia...

sigh!

liverpool fans

lebron james http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-NlTVgHIVW4

Caroline Wozniacki http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NyrvVfq6sJA&feature=related

http://www.liverpoolfc.tv/news/latest-news/miss-world-and-105-other-celebrity-lfc-fans

i'm home!

work can see light already!

i am home now at 8pm
:D

happy times ahead!

http://mycharitywater.org/jooyee

i only want donation for my birthday! http://mycharitywater.org/jooyee

ahhh

another week.

;(

inefficiency rises.


scream!