Korea

I will be going home in less than 8hrs.

How do I feel?

Traveling alone gives me a lot of time to think. And wonder. Usually I will have a lot of to do list when I am about to head home. But..... upon reaching home, all these things to be done are left behind.

Emotions. Currently feeling a bit more. Maybe I am overthinking. How I wish things will be different when I go back home, but I know it wouldn't.

To accept that it wouldn't will make me feel better, I think. Or should I strive to push for a change, a breakthrough?

It is not as bad as I am writing, nor as difficult. Everyone, it must people encounters or suffers from it. The comfort or ease of the sense of knowing, the comfort of familiarity.

Alone by myself feels good in the sense that I don't feel pressure. I don't sigh. I just, relaxed. :)

Back to reality. Things to learn, habits to stop, books to read, tasks to solve.

oh baby, over1k!

Unrealised earning over 1k !!! :D

Dream is not good for sleep

I dreamt a lot recently but didn't write about it. Anyway I dreamt that my two current favorite artists did a collaboration. Between rocket girls 101 and ransom collective.

I saw a scene whereby yamy was touring with ransom group because they were in Philippines and taking some photos together

In other stories . Currently reading born to run. Should be nice! 

Nervous!

First time attending a yoga class.... Scary, anxious!

Obsessed

I think I am supposed to write about something else but I cannot remember what was it I wanted to write.

Anyway I have been binging on YouTube videos on Chinese reality shows, mainly those relating to produce 101 china girls.

Kinda interesting to watch certain episodes, and see how they develop themselves and their personal life.

I watched a matching show two weeks back and it was great. Couldn't stop watching it (2 hours per episode). An happy that the two guys I like end up with the girls they were chasing.

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Am getting my life back on track, did some running and meditation today. Now need to read for 30-60m and study trading.

Frustrated

What can I do to score better points in my fantasy football!!

Let's see can play bg tonight or not...

Activities for next week : sell my dow, Suburbia and Coup
Prepare for the talk by Dr Chew.
Attend meeting on Tuesday

So hungry now.

Attending pattern trader option course.. Now lunch time...

Iceland 2&3

Day 2: visited the north American tetonic plate, geyser at strokkur, Gullfoss  followed by a snowmobile ride around the Glacier (couldn't see anything due to the fog/mist)

Dinner was late,  fish and chips by the sea (only because they told us it was by the sea, couldn't see anything outside the window). The waiter is an English and he supports Liverpool. Told us that he reckons sturridge goal is already a contender for goal of the season.

Day 3
Visited more foss (waterfall in iceland language)
Seljalandfoss & Skogafosa

Then visited black sand beach before heading to hotel.

Wanted to gym but slept from 8pm-2am

What I am going to do now? Lol

Iceland

Left home around 645pm.
Airport. Went and chill @ premier lounge
Flight to london
Watched leakers and girls vs gangsters.
Leakers stars Julian Cheung in Malaysia again &  girls got fiona sit.
Flight to iceland : feels like air Asia, everything needs money. I finished reading Rosie Effect.
Landed:

Bus ride: intro to iceland

Lunch was filling, need to do gym tonight. The portion is huge. Cauliflower soup + bread, then roast chicken with mushroom, onions &  barley followed by chocolate cake.

Tour on bus: done by Oliver, tour of the city around the port, a lot of arts and crafts shop.

Then we head to the church, perlan (pearl on the hill), hofdi house, sun voyager

The bus took us to selfoss and we rested there for two nights.

Brief history of Humankind (spoilers)

Informative and interesting perspective to our humankind history and growth.

I will elaborate on what I think about the book.  The book starts of discussing about the general history of humankind, specifically, the Homo sapiens, how it manage to survive and conquer the other similar Homo species, even though it is not the strongest physically. And humans are so good at hunting that they caused the extinction of some large mammals.

After that, it talks about the revolutions that led us to where we are now. The Cognitive Revolution: where Homo sapiens learn more about the world, communication and writing.

The Agricultural Revolution: where "we" started to settle in a location and learn to grow our own food instead of constantly hunting and moving about, and how our body and mind started to evolve/change due to this. Our diet used to be a variety of food (whatever we can hunt/ gather/ forage) vs now where it is more constant of the same type of food (growing the same rice/ corn year in, year out). And, instead of living free without worry, now we are constantly thinking about the next harvest, whether it will be good or bad. Without the Agricultural Rev, we will not have the size of the population as we have now. The hunting-gathering period requires nimble and small pack of humans, does not cater to big group.

As part of the growth, there is more rules and protection required. Rules to ensure nobody steals and protection from other people invading and stealing the village's food. Here is where the various empires begin to emerge, along with 'imagined order', new languages (mathematics) and taxes.

Human created their own internal hierarchy

The "unification" of humankind was through three factors: monetary, imperialism and religion.

Imperialism, through time, converts locals into believing they are part of the empire. Instead of recognising themselves as their local identify and culture, they adopted the culture and practices of the empire who conquered them (that they very likely hated at the start of colonisation)

Religion also gather people who are outside a community to unite under the same purpose. Religion also includes communism and capitalism.

Scientific Revolution: An evergrowing feedback loop. with resources, you do research whereby new discoveries allow the country to develop powerful weaponry to increase their power. Increased in power to conquer more countries leads to more resources. This is also the period where human start to  develop a questioning mind (compared to earlier when they accept what is taught by their respective religion)

As humans are curious creature, we started to do more exploration and research. Through exploration, they are able to find new lands to conquer. By conquering, it promises them more resources for trading to increase their wealth (capitalism in play), all these are done at the expense of the local native tribes/ empires

Industrial Revolution: access to more energy and manpower than ever before --> leading to parabolic growth in economy (production). Have we actually consider the livelihood of the chickens in the production line? It seems that instead of treating slaves poorly, we are treating the cattles and chickens poorly for our consumption (happiness?). It also talks about consumerism as the new culture/religion - making us buy more and more products in the market (enriching the big companies - ie the new empires)

The book briefly talks about how the world is now more peaceful than before, where based on a percentage count, the death rate through war/crime is higher then compared to the present. I disagree to some extent on this comparison because there are many more people/human now than before, but I think it makes sense as there are less wars these days compared to the medieval times etc.

Happiness - after all that human have achieved, are we really happy? How do we measure our progress? We should be happier than the people who have lived 10,000yrs ago, but are we? We have develop chemical solution to maintain the happiness level (Prozac). But the problem we realised is that happiness is never permanent. Buddhist teach us to contentment, to accept life as is. There is bound to be ups and downs in life, so the solution is we should not chase the ups and accept the downs. We should reduce our pursuit for happiness (extrinsic or intrinsic).

The books end with talking about human acting as life creator and consider its ethics and morality. Although we are now able to use technology to cure many diseases and provide replacement limbs for many people (arms, legs), we are also able to create new life in the lab.  What are the consideration we should take when we are making the decision whether to create a new life/species?

Replacing my monitor

I received my 43inch monitor but there was a problem with it. I need to get it replaced at puchong and preferably on the same day. The shop closes at 10pm. I asked Ccw and cm but they  both can't make it at the time I want.

I scroll down on my WhatsApp and I found Anna. I recalled she telling me that she got no plans for the night so I asked her this:

"This is weird but are you free now? I need a hand to help me carry a monitor to a shop in puchong to do replacement." she said OK. And FYI, Anna is a Tinder match that I've just met once (first time on Tuesday this week).

Hahaha. Anyway I got it replaced and we went to murni for supper.  Talked about stuff family etc and we ended up having an ideal dating app that we both think it might sell! #exciting!

Dropped her home and reached home around 1+? Fixed my monitor and just crashed on the chair.

wc18

World Cup18 is over. France won. I won rm600 (COST: rm120 + rm50) = RM430.

Bought SON's korea jersey

Attending Conrad's course this weekend.

MARRIAGE.

What a weird dream.

I dreamt a mix of things, but there is a life lesson to it. I was getting married to someone, someone that I am OK with, but I do not love. When we are signing the paper, I look at my partner, and I was like.. What? Is her? Why am I marrying her? Oh no, I do not have many things to talk to her. I do not even like her that much. Why did I say yes in the first place, or Why did I make such proposal?!?

I got so freak out from it.And I felt at that time it was too late to say no to the wedding. I was thinking to myself, maybe we can carry on and I can get a divorce later. It is no big deal, quite normal these days. Or don't even need to divorce, just life your own respective life.

And I woke up. I realise, WOW.I am given a second chance. haha. Do not do this. Must blog about it to keep a reminder.

Note to self

always set stop loss.. tested on both FKLI and LRCX, the consequences of not setting is quite disastrous.

in other news
went back to Pg on Wed, came back on Thu. drove back. ate chap fan outside kaima's house for dinner. stayed at Good luck inn, quite cozy :D

Jayden's bday party yesterday. played about 6-8 games of fifa with cm the whole afternoon. lol

went for a 10km run this morning.

later going for gym, plan to work the top 10 reps per set x 3 set?

Profit Thursday with caveat

Profit about $100 from US and about RM300 from local futures.

Caveat because I did two things which I should not have done if I have good discipline.
1) I moved my SL lower for LRCX to prevent from the GAP DROP. :( Now I am holding a stock at loss over $200. If it is a short term thing, (which is what I am expecting, hence the move down, then I am okay). I should target to reduce loss, not to profit already

2) FKLI holding overnight. Should have take profit, but left two contracts open. Lets' see if it can survive today's drop.

Profit Tuesday & Wednesday!

KLCI managed to take RM205 and RM700+-.

Saw some wood for labelling plants for the garden

Cook my own vege to supplement the carbs for dinner.


Profit from US stocks today! :D

Profit Monday!

Ammie teached my over the weekend in using Forecasting, check Harm to Life Door.  So, in the morning, I traded FKLI. Suprising result was so smooth. I manage to follow the big trend (Thanks to weekend course, who taught me macroeconomics is important) I compared the current KLCI number and its futures, and I use that as an indicator whether to add lot or not. I traded 9 times and I got the profit as below.

Now is at night, I took profit from TTWO, entered four positions (UNH, CRM, TTWO again, and MATCH). Happy with unrealised amount. :)

Also did some moving of my bed today. Realised there is a beam on top of my bed, and the bed is against a window. I also sleep with my toilet door open (NOT GOOD). Fixed all of it after dinner. Let's see if it will bring me better Qi.

Profits!!!

Realised a few stocks today. Happy!

Superstar dream

Hmm

Parking scene at home. Driving kammo s bmw.  Trying to adjust it

Dating with a guy scene. Was in a dinner date with a guy. Quite attractive and handsome.,in suit. We were eating a meal when their appetisers come. The appetisers is in the form of pills. One is fish oil capsules. He later suggested to perform. At the restaurant and the owners have to do some table arrangement. I sat and watch.

Play pretend selling tickets. Dunno why also.

Avengers dream.

I am part of Avengers. There is an army fighting lady,  there is spiderman, there is a Warhammer, winter soldier, hulk?

And we fight against thanos and emperor palpatine

There is another ordinary guy who has powers. 

Anyway scenes that I rmb:

1) Thanos become super big size and everyone is running away. He manage to throw a chain on spider and wrapped ard him. He them fall lor. Thanos caught him and pass him to a civilian. She tried to bite test him... When spidey came out, he has a tube behind him. Seems like thanos is inserting a bug into the spidey to mind control him.

2).the black army girl also got mind controlled already but I don't rmb how

3) an ant like human barge into a condo unit of one of the super hero , the ordinary guy who has power but not super strength. The ant tried to attack his mum but he managed to defend her. As they were wrestling, the ant guy uses his face with tentacles to attack the hero's face, twice. As the ant about to mind control the guy, the guy's mum manage to whack it from behind and he ran away.

4) staircase, condo unit need to run down the staircase. Kept switching the staircase to avoid detection. The enemy ant unit respawned and was coming up the staircase.  Managed to switchn3 staircases in the end and ended up in a place near bukit bintang / sg way

5) managed to run away from scene 3, trying to catch MRT in kl city center. As I was abt to go up the staircase (the mrt here is elevated). But I kept hearing emperor palpatines voice. Later, I can see he is everywhere.  I tried to approach and confront him but he was playing with me. He just turn away or act like he can't see me.

6) we are just chilling in my room. And I was testing the black army girl with some questions to see if she really know me but then I woke up.

Weekend and ucl final

Liverpool lost. But I am not happy with two things. Ramos made Salah injured his shoulder. Karius could have done so much better. :(

Disappointed by the circumstances of the situation. It is sad.

Weekend grwb. Picking up a few things here and there. Setting new goals.

Objective for post course : set a focus and go for it. Do not deviate.