photoful

due to number of photos, they will all in small size

except this one..... I'm a Graduate :D

(it makes me wonder am I going to have to photocopy my cert into A4 size to bring to interview etc, or do i leave the size just the way it is? (A) )

Faith & Moon on Monday :)


December 18 - Graduation Day

I think that in the morning, after I collected my gown from Regalia Shop at Carrington St, when I was walking home, someone tried to hit me with an apple. REALLY. It was like, I stopped awhile, then I saw something flashed across my eyes then when I looked to the left, I saw an apple rolling on the floor. T_T

Breakfast at Kowloon.. again.. (had dinner there the night b4)

Graduation was good. The guest speaker's speech is something I can relate and feel about. It was really funny hearing Barry pronouncing names.. lol

I sat next to Phoebe. Phoebe is this girl that I saw since last year I think. She is a girl I REALLY THINK LOOKS LIKE HEBE. =D lol. She's Korean. Kinda funny how we ended up chatting more than I thought we ever could.

photos during post graduation

Francis, Leanne, me & Jason

Cathy, RuShan & YJ


Dinner @ Steamboat place..

Met Rain there when we were about to leave. Also very strange. thats the first time I talked to her. lol It was OK, just seeing hws she enjoying her work, and that we shd get togehter when I come back to Adelaide, she Leann Rushan and Seen Ying.

Lemon Cheesecake sis ordered at Cocolat

December 19 - Farewell Dinner at Hog's Breath
I went out for lunch with Justin. It was really nice, I think its the second house I've been into. The first one was Lauryn's a month ago.

Robbie, Jackie, Sui Rob & I table

JY & Xuna Random Photo

Kat, Jackie & Lauryn

Mr Ho, Eugene & Sui

Kevin & Faith

This is what I ordered, Calamari Steak. It was GOOD... UNTIL GODWIN finished up whats about 1/4 of my steak when I walked Lauryn to Stella. He bought me jagerbomb after that which was okay :) hahahaa.. I think its like a really nice way of wrapping things up.

I ended up walking Katherine to HQ. It was nice catching up with things, and u all shd know by now how much i like to talk..

After that, i walked back to CIBOs (which is the same st as Hogs Breath) to collect my card from Sui.. i texted her saying how sad I was for not getting a card (cos she passed to everyone else except me.. )

'its difficult when you know what you want but there is something else which is more meaningful to you'

other things on my mind

for kammmo.. lol
will post grad stuff another day.

thanks big sis for the hug. really need it now.

i thought abt something this morning. everything has both sides right? (pros & cons). u can choose and try to look things brightly. but when something made u feel down, things that can be seen as having equal pros and cons can be looked upon as something negative lor

i m not sure if u understand. its like... there are things that u should be happy for, but because u r down, its like oh, just another thing.. thats all. but if u r feeling ok/good.. you might go 'how exciting'

mmm.
li lin, what u said today, about what you need. i know you are right. i think its better for the both of us.

---
anyways

I realized i need to reset my expectation of what msia is going to be like for me. just now, i had a major knock on my head that it might not be as what i thought it will be...

i have accepted the following:
no car *check
supporting my own living *check
going to be hell alone and lonely at home *sighh... check (lol)

thats all.. with friends.. i did thought abt it, like if they are not going back... will i still go back? the answer is yes i would. but now the question i need to pose to myself is what if you no longer can talk to them? i think thats hw i m feeling about some of them lor. and not that its their fault or wtv, its just that we are different people. i alwys thought that we ll have a good time, going out on weekends etc and work during weekdays. but it all seem so blurry now

but one thing as well is that am i going to rely on friends everytime we go out? YES.. lol maybe i ll just try not to go out as often lo... i m hoping to borrow kammo's car only when karo is here lor, other than that i dunt really mind not having a car

i already plan to bike ard d maa... weekend go sleepover at friends or cousin's place. weekday balik to rumah kosong.

hahah maybe AIESEC in kl can help me reintegrate back to their culture. helping them to run exchange sessions.. i ll prolly bring the photos of chloe and soph for them to see, and andrea, godwin and Cicy too. and some conference pics if any


i think, whats going to happen in the next 3 months are going to be crucial , life changing to me.


oh yeah! hehe.. i wrote a post, i really want to post it, but i know if i post it then theres no turning back, so i m writing tis to make me feel as if i posted it already even if i didnt so yeah... its all GOOD.

Beautiful


Artistic

'When you look up'

'and i thought that i am OK '

i am losing myself.

dad arrived dy, it was OK. talked a lot to him. more than usual. maybe cos' i m wee bit grown up. its 11pm. he is asleep already. :( I can't PC as long as i would want to now. i feel bad if i did.

tmr is my grad. still no feelings.

i m really disappointed with myself.

my dad asked me to go to brissy b4 going back. i might, if kitmun and yl are there.. lol otherwise i rather go home.

i really like my dad. when i'm young he is my hero. really. i looked up to him a lot. things happened since my mum passed away and we tried to reconcile but its different now. i only wished i could love him more and give him things that he wants from me.

I wanted to hug my sister today too. I never hug her before since she left to aussie the first time. Today, at Coles, it started to hit me that I am not going to stay with her anymore, not in the next few years. I felt really sad and I really wanted to give a hug then. But I didn't :(. Will give her big one tmr.

Then that made me think abt big sis in LA. If she is here now too I would hug her. She's been a great big sis though bossy but she is still my sis. I would hug both of them tight!!

*sniffs* hehe i have tears running down my eyes.. (well, walking down my eyes :P)

all i m saying, is that I kinda regret not showing how much i feel for them at times when it really mattered.



'Cause when i try to talk to you
I feel like I'm not getting through you
Where did we go wrong
It's hard to be strong
When I talk...
When I talk to you'

Mandy Moore's When I Talk To You. (i have this song's lyric in my blog b4, i find this song really meaningful and touching, it saddens me)

dead nights.

my odd-night sessions of waking up and playing PC will have to take a halt for the moment, as my dad is arriving in 4 hrs. he ll be sleeping in the same room as I am, and I ll be lucky if I can even stay on the PC till 1ish. lol

bright side: gets me to do other non-PC things which i can do in KL.

dark side: lost of communication/social interaction with close friends

anyways, my grad is tmr. i dont have any feelings for it. really. dunno.. maybe cos like things like this in life must be shared with good pals =). i'll fly you in if you want. yes, YOU. PLEASE be my pal.. *wink

I hope to meet up with Robbie and Anne tmr, take some shots with them.

hmm.. today? oh, Faith & Moon =) Faith was late, but Moon was latest. lol

updates?
trip 1 - VTs 9-9,10-10 dy kua.. easiest.. hehehee
trip 2 - road trip - dunno whos going, dunno where to go, got the date dy, but now have to change again. but at least we know the dates we cant do... (anything after jan 12 is no no). so hopefully can draft something out la.. at least we got the content of the trip dy :)

trip 3 - HELP girls (sigh) - mm penang/singapore. dates might be prob for this one.


trip 4 - karo..*blank* .. lol.. i dunno.. Langkawi.. Twin Towers, KL towers, shopping here and there... eat eat eat... karaoke... midnight life etc... i dunno.. anything kua maybe take her to Pangkor and melaka would be ideal

=)

' i want to see the whole world, but i don't want to do it alone'

chubbier.

my face is plum now. :( dunno why also. i think i realised this during exam period... when i webcam with li lin.. i thought it was nothing.. but now quite clear lorrr..

i think someone who has a chubby body is not as bad as having a chubby face :(

u know u got a chubby face when u open ur mouth (ur jaw goes downwards), and u can grab a hold of ur face meat near the neck area..

i am worried!!! i mean.. summo when i go back KL that time sure eat alot more one... how??

=(

Looking for jogging/walking partner in KL. Daily walks, evening/morning negotiable. Please contact me at 012-3376755.
Note: preferably Hot Chicks... and I am NOT talking about Nandos. :P

- i really ifnd it funny today at the park with Andrea. I mean, its really interesting to hear them speak in Portuguese. And I thought her friend Josie is an Australian. heh

my ipod shuffle is working again, all i need to do was to reinstall the software... lol i didnt realised i have that option till i read the manual again..

oh and camera in KL is cheaper. going back to buy :)
end of story! lol

now i only got two luggage to bring home. so easy. save money also. but i m leaving my comforter here.. most likely. among all the bed time items, pillow, bolster and comforter, i find the laast one most useful, u can wrap yourself in it, or around it (bolster) or fold it into a pillow.

^_^

' One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
Waiting to find a way back to you
Cause that's where I'm home'

Michelle Branch's One of These Days

tired. really tired.

i am sleepy now. i think maybe cos' i walked the whole day, woke up sixish then go back to sleep b4 waking up tenish.

liverpool lost. bah! frustrated

played too much human pet.. tired eyes

now im mentally tired.

meeting up with moon and faith tmr :)

i wanna go online, but im tired.

sleep

dad coming tmr.... day going to be long dy.. sighhh

i wish for alot of things.

ching may lol.

i had this dream about this shopping mall. you have all sorts of thing. its like at this one area, its like shopping mall/wild life theme park kinda thing. its not really like mammals kind of wild life, ti think they have like scorpions roaming around the place, then u can see some aquatic animals underneath the floor (its a glass floor)

i thikn there is this one part where everyone i splaying chess/ board games, and cm and i decided to play. the pieces were really random, i got a proper one and it was black. cm's however is like monopoly houses, but smaller, in colors of red, yellow and green. then there was this guy who i think is ching may's friend sitting nearby talking to us whilewe play.

i think like ching may said something about how i goof aroud people and something like that thats why she don't trust me being alone (w/o her) with her friends.

ii this thats the part that i can recall.. maybe cos its really really weird to have ching may in my dreams.. lol



today is.. sunday, going out later to meet up with andrea for picnic, but i ll prolly just take some photos, talk to herfor abit and leave. I might go around city buying stuff to bring home i guess

things to buy

chocs (for general friends lol)
hl's musem piece
jy's something (still thinking)
kammo n jo's chocs... hope its cheap ler

=)

i am 21.

Min Li used the word 'only'. I think 21 is a fair age, no longer only.
Everyone should start working by now.
Some people already did 2-3 years back.
4 yrs on you'll be in your mid 20s and living your adult life.
And when are you planning to have a family? Children, any?

I am already 21. What am I gonna do about it?
I have plans, but they are just plans.
3 yrs of working in Public accounting for the CA, then up the corporate ladder I go.
Open a company/organisation in the future with emphasis on environment & corporate social responsibility

Relationship wise, I think I am looking to have a stable and steady relationship by 24-26.

less blogging than before

i've just checked my previous posts, e.g. last years. Some of them feels like it was just not too long ago I had that dream (I blog about my dreams every nw and then, so yeah).

Also, by numbers, I've blogged less this year compare to the last two. I think only this month i've been blogging more.. cos' I am leaving home and etc. :P

i've just finished watching HERO.

now what do I want to do? I don't know. hehe.. i'm on9 now but not chatting with anyone. Maybe i'll go offline and come back later. for the moment, i prolly continue drawing stuffs...

and your eyes goes O.O

lol
i cut bits of my hair today. i don't think it look too much diff, which is good.. I cut bits of my left top front and sideburns.

'I open myself to you to let you into me, to hope you understand who am I, not to overwhelm you'

walk

"i want to walk side by side with you, holding hands.
if i walked too fast, tell me and i'll walk slower.
if i am behind you, take a deep Breath and I'll be next to you."


lines that came to me when I was walking, but kinda like.. unreal. Cos' its impossible that you can't see that you are walking too fast/slow.

I think that when it comes to forgiving things, I have a hard time letting things go. I choose to make it difficult for myself to forgive myself. This is bad cos' in my POV I think that you must always forgive yourself and move on. If you don't, you only make yourself & others suffer "pains" that are not necessary.

I think like, I am kinda useless when it comes to making ppl feel better. Its like, I need that someone to make some effort as well. (I know that in the end you do NEED that person to make an effort, cos' if she/he dont want to feel better, you can't do anything). But I know that I am not as good as I should be.

You know, in life, I am not really determined about a lot of things. I don't mind if things doesn't happen and I always let those slipped away from me. I guess thats one of the disadvantage of being positive all the time. Hopefully, I can be a more determined person and strive hard for what I want.

I am really tired. Not physically. But I know that I will be better. =)

Yesterday was a 'day'. But its just a day now.

I want to just close my eyes.

it is raining outside

i started the day talking to min li. its been awhile since the alst i talked to her. told her stuffs thats been going on lorr... kinda a lil' blue feeling, when we talked about changes and all...

I went to city to meetup with Robbie and Anita for a meal at 12. The bus I took 'sei foh' twice I think.. kinda scary if it doesn't start again and in middle of nowhere.

We went to Noodlelicious, which is where I will be going again on Monday with Faith and Moon. I think talking to them, I sort of summarised my stay here, from the start, how I feeling needing something to support my stay here socially and then to what the future is going to be like.

Anita & me

After that I went to office to sort out Jan Con payment stuff. I went to WestPac and along the way I saw this. Its call sand sculpture, and you are looking at a female's behind.. :S hahahaa.. the lady was sculpting and i was like errr... but then I changed my mind. :P thought it would be funny, how you are looking at the whole sculpting and there's an *** right back at you.

Took pics with Nimz :) I like the photo. hehehehe (I take one!)

I think this pic is really.. emotional. thanks to Aleks!

--- Godwin William Jon & I went to Dumpling King for dinner. I had special chilli beef rice, as spicy as the noodle i had last time. lol. afterwards while we were buying bubble tea Godwin was checking out this girl who was standing not too far away. kinda funny.

and then.. this..


Its really funny. Godwin told me about it, that Crazy Horse is having this Mega Strip thing. LoL. i mean like, how mega a strip can be?? lol ... what if its ultra? how stripful it would be then????


Adelaide United
I always been wanting to go for a game. It cost me 16 bucks for the entry, and then 5bucks for the rain coat cos it was raining and windy. x_x

Adelaide United lost 2-1 to Mariners. The whole stadium was filled with passion towards the last 30mins when we manage to grab back a goal and the team was able to pressure the visitors. However, we did not get the goal we could have gotten, too little too late.

some photos



Big Red (the Mascot), JY & BR and Hindmarsh Stadium where we watched the game.



Refs' warming up (what if one got injured?), Kickoff, Photo time



Godwin's halftime snack, beer and churros, Godwin & me post game

I was supposed to go out with Andrew tmr, but I just cancelled it. No mood dy... Besides, I need to clean the house, maybe try to settle some work at home kua.

8 days. its still too long. :(

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yeahh
lol, mr Ho., asked me to go to that stripclub next week with him. I don't really want to, but I don't know.. lol. It would be really odd and weird. I don't want to go, not because its a stripclub, well maybe cos its that. But I just don't see the point of paying x to go there and see lor. lol Godwin says its better than HD.. hahaha funny guy.

we'll see how.



hehe just add one thing - i absolutely Lurvee peifern's 2nd quote =)

Portable Scanner

Do you know that portable scanner is really useful these days?

If you have a laptop, you can essentially scan your documents anywhere at anytime. In your car, while you are rushing to work, all you need to do is just plug it in and scan you documents. It saves time compare to scanning it at home. You can also bring it to 'work' at a coffee shop, and do any necessary scanning there while you sip you iced tea, rather than doing a takeaway and rush to a nearby scanning service around the area.


ScanShell 2000N, is one of those many portable scanners available in the market. Its a A4 sheet fed scanner. One of the features that I really like is the speed. It scans 6 ppm (Six pages per minute), Colored. That is even faster than the scanners at the libraries. I think that its speed is really important. If its portable, and its speed is like 1-3ppm, then its not useful at all.

It weights about 330g, which means its easy to be carried around. Its power comes from the USB2.0, which means that you'll only need one cable, rather than having one data and one power cable separately. The USB 2.0 allows you to connect to most computers these days, whether it be PC or MAC.

Scan2Contacts is the business scanner and software for Microsoft Outlook. It is easy to use and if you are a Microsoft Outlook user you will like it a lot as it is fully integrated into the program. It is the only program that allows you to scan the business cards directly into Microsoft Outlook. I believe that working adults that have regular meetings with people will find this item useful in organising their daily lives.

Indian flavored.

rs

I slept 1/2 way talking to Li Lin again yday night. Was watching RAW till abt 210 ish before i KOed. :( damn sad lor, I mean, i want to watch till the end mar. If sleep and missed Li Lin I don't mind, at least make the sacrifice worth while. x_X

Now its like cannot meet both ends of the bridge.. lol

Anyways, I started my morning feeling really tired and sleepy. I thought about my luggage and it gave me headache really. I thought about buying laptop then I won't be so fan. But I anti-laptop one. how? If I buy laptop then i dont need the monitor. But anyways I just realised that I need to bring home my pillow and comforter too, so ... more goods into the box dy.

I went and window shopped for cameras. Radio Rentals, JBs and Harvey Norman wasn't really helpful. Mark frm Dick Smith was very helpful, now I shortlist my camera to two only. Canon's IXUS 75D ( I THINK) and Olympus 790SW (:P) . Personally I love 790SW for its shockproof. Guys like me will find it really useful. It is also waterproof 3m. :) so I can use it to swimming pool and beach and snorkeling and stuff.. :) I don't think I'll buy Canon, unless because of the price lor.


did some AIESEC stuff while waiting for 4pm to meet with David. helped Sui to use the scanning upstairs. we waited for David at McDs and it was really funny cos' like Sui just waved at him in front of the manager.. lol. ADVICE: NEVER EVER ARRANGE TO MEET AT A RESTAURANT unless you want to test your control and resistance. lol. Robbie, Sui and I were like staring at the menu and tempted to order something. I caved in but after Robbie mentioned about the uncertainty of the size, I woke up.. lol

Then on the way to Starbucks, David mentioned that he gets 1/2 price for the McD food..

We ordered Signature Iced Choc... which was okay. Personally I prefer bean bar much much more. Anyways, after the chat, I am really glad that David is feeling okay and doesn't feel to worried about the exchange/ situation in Chennai.

David & me

I had dinner with Lauryn at Raj on Taj, apparently its very popular, even my sis knows abt it! :)
I had goat, which tastes like lamb to me. Coconut naan was funny.

didnt do joggin today. :(

finally i know what girth means, which then what happened this morning abt me thinking hard abt my luggage doesnt need to happened :P lol

any last points? mmm... going out for meal with Anita, sorting payment for conference and SOCCER!!! Adelaide United v Central Coast! :D should be interesting

=) i wrote a 'song' today. might post it here someday. if its okay.

ta! off to spidey 3

trips, trips, trips.

hmm.. anything interesting ahh..
Today, i went to city. i managed to sort out David's and the documents for my cousin!

meeting with David tmr, meeting with Lauryn tmr as well! :)

i am planning to buy Backpackers for David if he likes card games.

i took photo of Andy today.

didnt go jogging cos i ended up over crapping with some one and spent the most of the time to patch things back.. lol.. (or is this an excuse for not going to jogging? :P)

i wrote some cards for xmas' sending them tmr. most likely will be belated.

LIVERPOOL TROUNCED Marseille and become the first something team to win at their stadium. :) Looking forward to this weekend. VIVA REDS!

yup thats all i got for now.

=) tis is great.

Cape Jervis & rest of Dec 11

I like this photo heaps!

Fleurieu Penisula's map from the paperbag of my food: steak and bacon pie ( i ordered another meat n veg later on, it wasn't as good). If you look at the pic, you can find Yankalilla and Cape Jervis. Adelaide probably 20-30mins drive from Noarlunga if I am right. (Noarlunga is like the end station of our Adelaide Metorbus, whereby you switch to country buses over there)

I tried Lemmington too. Its like our kuih that we did we shaved coconut. Lemmington is an Aussie cake.. according to Kylie and Jen.

Fucking scary clown. Look at 'him'. Jeez!

Kylie and Jen. (A fly landed on my mouth while I was taking this pic)

There were flies everywhere at that idiotic place. We took the photo below so many times before we got it right. One pic, Kylie has fly on her face. lol.

There were very nice scenery along the way. I didn't took too many and those I that I took aren't good representations of what I saw. I took a photo of the sea, of which dolphins were 'playing', jumping in and out of the sea. It was really cool cos' thats my first time seeing wild dolphs. After that I bought a coffee fo Jen and we went home. I was still trying to fix her seat belt when we got back into the car but its impossible!!

I came back and I went back out to the city to sort out the documents that ah peen kor2 needs. I talked to Andy at the office. Have to call him for the outing this weekend. :) Oh, I borrowed Hoodwinked and Hero to ease my boredom, if I need to. I went to Coles with sister after that, took some pics of Ethan while I was in the car. and I bought chips and Choc chips home, in case if I ever miss Australia.

Anyways, today has been a turning point day i think. for something else.

I've talked to Ian today. I appreciate how he showed concerns when I wrote in my nick 'all the troubles'. AND HE IS THE ONLY ONE who asked!!! If you were online then and you read my nick and didn't bother asking, shame on you!!! tsk tsk tsk..

i've sorted out some meeting stuff , I can see that there are too many things to do, even though I don't do much everyday. lol.

Hopefully I'll meet up with Faith and Moon tmr for lunch. Next week I'm meeting up with Godwin, Andrea, Jen (at least) for dinner and with Finance ppl for dinner/lunch. This weekend HOPEFULLY i'll go out with James KQ and co. I've started asking friends about NY Eve plans cos' Lydia asked me about it. Where to go this time? I must make it different but great at the same time!!

i never hear from Karo yet, sigh, can't lock down other plans, feel kinda bad.

in less than one hour I'll be watching Liverpool's game. liverpool lost this weekend but its OK cos Arsenal did as well. But its a pity. How we lost to Reading when it should have been another 3points. Ahh..


David, my EP, is going to have some problem now. Just now (like 4-5hrs ago), Sui send me an email on the status of AIESEC in Chennai. Its bad. Real bad. And David is going there. I need to talk to Sui and Chloe, before I talked to David. Personally I would tell him everything and see what he wants to do about it. I would want him not to go but of course there are other factors coming into play, such as purchased air tickets and other expenses incurred. It would be silly not to. =( I really feel sad if he were to go and suffered like Rhiannon did. Its just not fair.

that said, my sam is not lor2 luen, not now anyway.

nightz & morning to you.