catch up with tseyee

Went for morning run with tseyee at bkt Jalil today. It was a good run. We did two rounds.

After that we went for brunch at klise oug area.

The food is not bad

The best part was the conversation with her. I told her abt my current status, relationship wise. Hehehehe. It was nice to talk/share with someone about it.

dream

I dream abt steph and I went out for a date. We sat down in  a restaurant IPPUDO and ordered our food. Steph went to washroom. I slept on the table why the waitresses rearrange the tables with me lying on it.

Later on. There's rumor that the restaurant got covid case. The owner is celebrity hk william so. He said it is up to us to leave or stay. Everyone dashed out.

As we evacuated, steph and I got separated but we found each other again. I realized I left my bag with stuff inside in the restaurant. 

Steph was looking for another restroom and this time decided to use the gsc 's staff only room. She asked me to join her but I insist to wait her outside.

Before that, we did talk about what were we planning to do on the evacuation, I said I ll follow her..

Scene 2. I m on my way to work when dad just knock on Kammo main door and announce himself. He came in and I went out of the house. He then turn around at if he is joining me to which I told him that I m of to work but he can use my car. 

I asked him if he feels weird each time he comes back he said no. I replied it is to me because each time you come back unannounced,

Later on my pick up arrived. Hl driving white kancil. I asked him if he prefers that i drive 

liverpool Xi v preston

Kelleher

Neco Williams, phillips, gomez, tsimikas

Ox, morton, Jones,

Minamino, origi, x

Sunday outing

Meditation. Soundbath at alchemie boutique.

Drinks at W1. Pimms + shredded corn cob

Royce chocolate. Champagne.

Flowers. Lilies. 

Dinner at Dabao. Kl.

Big talk. 

Home

Liverpool. 5-0. Old Trafford. 

public holiday. chatting up with ailin kf

Orito in Plaza Damas. I like both the puffs! 

Jjajangmyeon. Nice. Jjampong and tangsiuyuk is OK. Can be better. 

Talked about nick, myself, family (mine, theirs), trading, what's new with each other 

Ailin going to banting next yr. Kf starting new job next month.

I think it is thoughtful of ailin bring up the topic slowly rather than immediately. Easiest to digest. The conversation was pleasing. :) 

Bought a pineapple cake back. From kuke. Hope it taste good! 

Effort! Effort! Effort! 

day out

Morning fly cycle with steph at club aloha.

Now my butt hurts. I cannot stand and do upper body while cycling. 

Had drinks next door before going for lunch.

Came back shower then head to ggmb to see art gallery. 

Took. Photo. Drove back home

좋은아침 여러분

Grateful things for this week. 

Productive week at work, made some major breakthroughs. A few steps closer to finishing the transition to new software 

Meeting Stephy tomorrow. :) I wonder what activity will she ledger or she would prefer me to choose? 

Liverpool is back! Football matches are back today. Against watford today but without Alisson and fabinho. Hopefully kelleher can step up!  Early match too

Trading. Qcom went from low of 122, now back to 130.this is alot!.. Some of my trades would have profited of I didn't cut loss. :l

But most wouldn't have. Lol

Need to be more calm and patient while waiting for entry. 

I visualize that I will profit from my trades consistently, that I will have better win ratios and gain more discipline 

Also I plan to go donate blood next week! 

That's all for today 

types of listeners

Picked this up from natstory's ig live. 

The are two types of listeners that people are looking for. One is the type that listens and give empathy. The one who is venting his feeling is not looking for any solution from the listener. He just want to release his burden inside about the problem and be emotional about it during that period. 

If this once in awhile then it is acceptable. After all, we are only humans. We should try to listen and give empathy even though that is not what we want to do. And what we want to do is not important nor it is the focal point here. The focus here should be on the person who is sharing his feelings and thinking.

Then, the other type of listener is the type who wants to help the teller to solve or address the problem. This listener is keen and willing to discuss and talk through the situation and identify what can the person do at this point to ease his conflict /issues. Again, even though that is what we like to do that that does not mean that is the right thing to do. Sometimes the teller just wants someone to listen and doesnt need a solution.

The important part is probably to gauge the person and see which of what kind of listening they want from you. You can also ask and see what they are looking to get from telling you. Then you are able to provide a more useful listening to the person 

first week of Oct 21

Translated the steps to cook a yakisoba noodle

Received 마마무's album 

Things I am grateful for this week. 

1 remaining calm and avoid being worry 

2 tried pilates

3 meditated yesterday 

4 talked to ys and Conrad about my trades

5 having a laugh with my cousins playing overmind 

building mental strength

It is a consistent effort to build something. Like practicing to exercise daily to lose weight and stay healthy, there are actions that you need to take daily to build up your mentality. Whether it is confidence, repel worry, discipline/ determination, there are actions or exercise you could do everyday to make yourself better at it.

I want to start this journey more actively. 

So what I will do today to move towards this step? 

Confidence : being more assertive in things you want and being comfortable in doing things you don't really like

What I want to do? 

What I don't like to do?

Repel worry: need to constantly remind self to stay confident and that worry is normal but you should ignore that feeling.

Discipline. Set time to do things you always wanted to do but yet to accomplish, namely python, bazi classes. 

한국어 post

좋은아침. 나는여자를만나서. 여장이름이는Stephy. 나는너너무좋아.

grateful post

Getting back my groove on derivatives market

Most 🇺🇸 US stock position are in the green.

Chatting with stephy is nice. 

Been having weird dreams that made wake up and feeling scared /worried /uncomfortable.

Been also more productive with day to day stuff, got back into habitica again, but trying to manage it so it is not so hectic

나는안바쁘고 싶어요! 

I don't busy want = I don't want to be busy 

jabbed

Got sinovac vaccination on 15.7

Wheein is leaving RBW, but stay on as mamamoo

that arrangement will last until 2023. my goal or consideration now is to move to seoul and live there until 2023? :D why not?

휘인 might be leaving mmm

Sigh. Expected but still sad. The rumors are now starting to fly around saying that it is confirmed wheein will not renew her contract with rbw. Omg

I wish her all the best but this is too big of a news to ignore. :(

frost punked

This free game on epic is totally worth it. Enjoyed the game a lot and it is so addictive that I forgot how many hours I spent playing it. Jeez. Not very healthy.shall stop for today. Crazy

blogging with my new keyboard

Bought a new keyboard and it just arrived. Testing it now as it is Bluetooth enabled, I can connect it to my phone. So now I m blogging on my phone but I am typing on a keyboard. nice? 

Haha I think it is a nice add on feature which may be useful if I am using more than one console (which correct I think it won't happen) 

waw

Oh yes, I bought the following.

A new pc

A new keyboard and mouse

Waw album by mamamoo

 

lol somehow managed to get 3rd place

EPL is over. Liverpool finished 3rd. This is considered a miracle to me considering where they were before the past two three weeks ago.

Happy they managed to come through it all and give themselves ucl for next season. We go again!

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This morning got two weird dreams. First one was about traveling to oversea for vacation with family. We were in Korea ish place. Came out of a subway station with dad and headed to a restaurant. The restaurant, however, is actually a mamak place. There were my cousins etc. After makan, we supposed to go back to pack. I walked with my cousins to the station and somehow I decided to go back to the mamak place. There, I picked up my sister and another person and we waited for an elevator to go back to the hotel room to pack. The elevator floors are inversed ie grd flr is 4, but the highest floor is 1. We got rushed for time and I was paranoid that my second sister still got so many things to do and pack before she is ready to leave

Second dream one don't rmb much except the setting was in Yong len. We were eating and I went out for awhile. When I came back someone decided to treat the group. One of us keep insisting to pay for his portion whereas I just said  thank you. In the car, one of the person proposed another activity which my cousin did not reject but rather tried to avoid saying yes. I laughed at the matter and commented to the person that my cousin is rejecting her out loud. Then my cousin finally admits she is occupied with her two other cousins for a meal. The person said she understands and it is the timing.

that feeling

That you do all you can, do your best and you do won't get what you want. 

In fact, if anything, the more you put in an effort, the more it tries to get away from you, avoid you.

And you learn you got no choice but to give it up, for the better happiness. And even so, your heartaches so badly.

You want to cling on to every ounce of hope you can find, but at the same time you just want to let go. You want to hear the rejection so you can officially stop doing it.

Hurts so badly.

grilled cheese kimchi sandwich

if you haven't try it. please do.

slurps!

마마무 concert!

it's today! in another 3hrs! can't wait!!

also, man utd v Liverpool tmr. big game. hope we can win! 

and my stocks. didn't do too well with my own discipline. have to hope for the best next week otherwise will hit stop loss. 

Redd. arrived last week!

lazy weekend

pre-ordered Redd. (gosh)

 https://www.makestar.co/projects/singer_wheein_01?locale=en 

1. Watched MAMAMOO at Shopee indonesia
2. Watched Wheein and Hwasa's comebackhome
3. Bought/Ordered Wheein's album

:D

gathering with friends

Probably quite realistic because it looks like a look of v people came out to hang out / meetup post pandemic. Alot of gathering between school mates who haven't meet for a year?

The location was at the jasima enterprise role. The first person I met was Mindy. We talked about how this place was Starbucks before they closed and moved to another lot. The other lot, they closed down during covid and now picked up another differentshop lot to reopen.

Mindy also commented on the restaurant sharing the same lot as Maybank (split to half with the restaurant taking half from the lorong/back)  that it is very expensive. I agreed with her and added that it is a tourist attraction to eat the local delicacy

After that saw pf, WH also there but not with our group, Catherine, Hl. We look at nick taking photos with his other friends before he called Hl and asked "eh where are you now?" to which I replied to the loudspeaker from Hl phone "we are here" (which nick can hear loud in person)

We can also see Jati ppl gathering in another table and I was thinking why like everytime we meet up, Jati also got gathering one? Is it because Hl organize it as such???

Anyway as we head to our reserved table, some that people took it and I had to talk to the owner about the situation. 

not really no

I am unsure of what feelings lately. I am not unhappy but neither I am happy. Not depress but not enthusiastic about things either right now

Some kind of motion that will eventually end.

Spotify and dream

Since Monday, Spotify have stopped streaming most of 마마무 songs because of some copyright /agreement with kakao m.

Hopefully they can resolve it and I can listen on my phone again. 

In the meantime, there is YouTube! 

Weird dream

We went to ou for dinner, my extended family and me. I decided to go down first while they look for parking. After walking for awhile, I found out I don't have a mask and had to go and buy one. 

And during that time, I found out that my family have switched location for dinner and have left me behind. They totally forgotten about me. The me inside the dream was angry. I was frustrated. Very.

Yet, somehow, I told myself to breathe and that is pointless to blame. Then I woke up with calm mind. My heart is still beating fast but I feel that the negative emotions is already over. 

literally

I watched almost all their variety shows. 마마무좋아요

crazy about mamamoo fever

Been indulging myself in mamamoo 마마무 content for the past 1.5 weeks? So crazy.

Don't know how it started but got me so into them now. Lol

And these days every single Korean idol/artist also got their own YouTube. 

Will try to use their videos to learn up more Korean. 

Happy Chinese new year 2021!

Terraforming Mars on Steam

been playing a lot of TM lately, since buying the game two weeks back. 

today, won a 1v1, tied on points, won on the amount of Gold left. and I was running out of time (0s left)

highlight was two of us selling cards vying for 1TR from an Ocean. lol. ridiculous in hindsight. but i won.lol

 

motivational sunday

goal for 2021

Play less games.

Spend time with more intent and purpose. 

Understand and practice the fact that you can do better things in your time to improve your situation into a more ideal and meaningful one. 

Take action

Increase output

Reflect

Aware

Repeat

checkup + hemorrhoid

Went to hosp today. Doctor diagnosed me with hemorrhoid. :l I decided to do a colonscopy just to be safe.

The procedure will be on Tuesday next week. Let's see

Other news. 

Liverpool won Atlanta easy. Jota hatrick 

US election Damn tight. Biden is chasing Trump, only need Nevada now

back to routine

Almost one week already.

Start back my reading habit. Check

Practicing Korean and Chinese again. Check

Reading my statement of desire. Check

Exercising. Check. 

Meditating. Check

Grateful that my unrealized loss gone from 4k down to 1.5k now. 

Trying to reduce food intake after evening time like what we did back during the meditation course

Awesome

I am happy!

 

Made gross 775 from trading futures today. Happy!

Lesson is. No emotions, don't expect anything, there is no right or wrong, it is just a probability game.

Take the trade!

back to routine

I should start the day of end the night b with a post, to state the be right and grateful post.

New thought: I need to flip my book daily also to keep me running! 

Grateful :

Didn't end up doing anything silly yesterday

That I am somewhat healthy and alive

That I can see the path to get things right, or get back on track

Things I can do better:

Accepting that playing less won't die

Increase concentration period to do tasks

Get back to reading!

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Liverpool won! Bobby scored!

Now have to see my other players perform or not. Best is Ings and Pereira because no one else owns them. 

One New thought a day

 I should put more posters in my room to motivate myself to visualise my success .... A4 papers here and there to start.

Thought #2. Be brave and confident. :) need to constantly remind yourself to think like this... 

Consistent is the key to success!

Liverpool lost 7-2 to Aston Villa. I saw this results in the morning after watching Man Utd 1-6 Tottenham. Shocked and surprised at the result.

I don't feel good

I don't feel happy. 

I don't want to be productive. 

I don't want to sleep. 

I don't know what I want to do.

But in the end, after I sleep, when I wake, it will be another day to go through. 

I just want to idle away right now until morning. Without any intention or purpose. 

Not worrying about tomorrow

And just do. Without consequences

Just how I am feeling right now. 

I will be fine tomorrow. 

Because it will be another day to live

Liverpool GW1 4-3 leeds

First EPLgw for 20/21

Liverpool won 4-3, Salah hat trick.

Leeds looks good.. Very aggressive. Whenever they have the ball, you can see 4-5 players level with our defenders, waiting to run for the ball which willp pass into space behind. 

My fantasy sucks though. 

Went out with xh yday for pan mee

Later go yoga with Efe, SC and grace

Now having brunch with cousins at divine in ss

OH, and got major water leakage at home on Thursday night

Very bad. It was because the water tank above, the ball that controls the flow of water, was broken. 

etm skies

 https://www.bilibili.com/video/av31736908/

su ruiqi, luo yijia, liu renyu

su ruiqi's lousy pc

in Penang for prayers

The must eat when in airitam

Prayer items

Joss stick + candle

Kuihs

Fruits 

Roast chicken and siuyuk

One set of vege rice and dishes

irks

Irks me when I cannot reconcile my clothing. Currently I cannot seem to find my pair of socks

Edit : found it 5 mins later, it fell to the drawer below.

updates: trans siberia & who is pretty

Hang out with Ccw n dee on Tuesday. Had uncle Don and yommie... 

Hang out with Tse Yee on Monday. Had yellow brick road

Meeting up with cousins this weekend

Shares going sky high!

Grateful

Happy that I have been making profit lately. 

Started taking up python again

Bought veggies and is cooking again

Can do better

Make A firm decision on mnst n iwm

Do research on msia stock. 

zico - summer hate

Very catchy song! 

baked again!

Nuts! It needs to be at least 20m at 150c. 

Brownies! Getting better... This one I should have leave at the oven a little longer to get the crisp top. 

Yomie! Second cup in a week! 

Cm sister's mochi cookie! 

weird dream.

So the dream revolves around a guy in a place. The guy was sightseeing /foreign at this place. He later group up with another two pax. They were touring this area and saw the incoming group from opposite side were drenched. He realized that this was because one section up ahead was open, no roofing. He knew this because he visited there from the other side previously.

Then there was this scene where they parted ways. The guy /me was waiting for a 3:30 flight. While waiting I was thinking maybe can go eat something...

Then another scene where we were in a cruise ship. We landed in this port city in India called Sustainable. There some of the cruise ship tourists were chilling at a coffee shop. 

Last scenes was whereby the guy found out one of the girl the met earlier was involved with another guy who pretended to attack her. So, he was running to alert everyone abt their wrongdoing, whilst the girl and the 'bad guy' was chasing him from behind. 

The guy/me pass through a guard who then joined forces with the girl and started to follow /chase from behind. 

The guy managed to reach the group but he was couldn't talk to them as they were in a swimming session. The girl then approached the guy with a knife, and teached him how to swim by using the knife as a model. 

Liverpool. Champions of EPL

Finally.

Chelsea beat MC 2-1. Liverpool wins 2020 EPL as MC can no longer achieve the points Liverpool is currently holding. 

#awesome 

Reflection!

Grateful

Productive day, sort out work stuff

Received minyoung's postcard

Reflection

Do the things you want to do first. Your time is your time, do not adhere your time to others

Friendly reminder to always set stop loss. :)

3G3R

Grateful

-cooked garlic fried rice. Taste good! 

-went for a run today. First one in weeks! Very bad timing, like 10m for 1k. Zzz.. Need to get back in fitness level

-meditated. Good job! Need to keep this ada habit. I time it from 30m and let it slowly build up from there 

Reflection 

-tomo ramen is nice, the miso soy milk. But the spicy one I ordered is a no no

-finish reading my current books before starting new one! You are better of recapping those books you read before too! 

-should plan for my medical checkup soon d. 

3G3R

Happy to have some realised profit yday

Managed to get tasks sorted today

More calm. During confrontation

Reflection 

Whether importance of the debate. Not important, don't debate. No point. 

need to focus on key actionable areas and task. To revise forecasting

Should control your computer game hours. 

3G3R

1 xh brought me munchy's biskut!

2 managed to do up reading and exercise to meet my daily task. Going to fail on meditation though 

3 on my exercise. Lasted 2.5m on planking!

Reflection 

1 no one dictate how I manage my time. I determined it myself. Don't blame others for what you decided to react

2 meditation should be at the start of the day

3 building small pieces goes a long way

painted my first figurine today

munchies from xh

3G3R

Habitica really helpful, happy to be using it again. Also happy that I m adhering to the tasks 

Did continuously reading on JY and almost finish my Korean class!

Been playing less games? Hopefully can stay that way

Reflection 

Need to do more analysis on stocks and economies 

Need to prioritise important tasks and do them first (rather than doing the easy ones) 

3G3R

Grateful

1 free usd10 coupon in epic. Bought jedi fallen order

2 managed to complete most of my habitica yestrday, but didn't do 3/5 of my yesterday's task

3 - 

Can do better 

1 stop playing games that is repetitive. 

2 sleep more, good for your body. Like today, you should pull down the curtain before you sleep. Better sleep = better rest = more refreshed you! 

3 be more consistent with updating data

Things to do today

Pyton

Review stock 

Read news 

Do economy Malaysia data 

Prepare trade for next week

back to habitica

I realised, though I have made some good steps forwards on my trading and reading, I am still slacking in some other aspects.

Decided to go back to habitica to sort my daily life. I have reduced the minutes but increased the sessions so that it is more feasible. Ie 2x 30m instead of 1x 60m

Other news:

Football is back on 17/6

Market looks bullish. Not good for me but let's see

Going out for a dinner date

CMCO is looking like a good bridge between before and after covid. I was qing at ikea today. Long q but no one is complaining (everyone knows it is part of it now, qing). A lot of people though. 

Bought curry puff! 

Should remove some games that are too repetitive. Looking to limit my time on steam and epic games too

grateful post

Setting SL to take profit or lower profit yesterday. Most trades were right but one was greedy.

Had another good sleep but tummy still gassy. Haha

Gonna go shopping for milk + order outside takeaway today after the call.

profit!

Took $350 for profit yday, though the remaining is abt - $150, still good.

The remaining are long position except for mnst. 

Keep it up,  keep reviewing what you have read to reinforce it into your habit. 

Ab exercise twice day! 

CMCO extended

Our cmco is now extended until June. I think that is a good idea, health wise. Not sure how badly this will hit the poor and small biz even further.

Hopefully everyone will be fine. Most importantly, they will have the determination and will to come back stronger. (and stay healthy throughout) 

Grateful stuff

1) still losing weight 

2) started stardew valley. My my that game is addictive. 

3) baked another round of bread..more or less the same like the previous one. Good crispy edges. Buttery insides. I like

4) played gloomhaven over the weekend. 😬 

Observation: CMCO

Went out today for the first time since they have announced CMCO.

Drove out to DJ to tapau lunch, then head to Tmn Mega for bakery stuff, before heading to Starling's supermarket & then back home

What did I notice?
A lot of cars, seems like back to usual already in terms of the number of cars on the roads. Having said that, it was easy to find parking (which means not everyone is 100% out back to pre covid).Nee

In TTDI, I think there are more shops open for business, but in Tmn Mega, most shops are still close re Magnum Toto etc.

Restaurants in DJ and Tmn Mega only provide for take away/ delivery only. What does this means? Less income for the food & beverage industry, coupled with a higher cost of operations (sanitizers, temperature check controller, fixed employees - unless they cut them down, ingredients unused which cannot last goes to waste). When it is fully reopen, the F&B also cannot operate at full capacity due to the required social distancing.

We are also required to queue up in most places, which is trying to control the volume of patrons at each shop.

I think generally people are also more conscious and wary about these matters.

Having said that, I do feel that this is the new normal. And businesses that can operate in this manner will be able to survive through this unfortunate climate. Those which are cash rich, less capital intensive, low maintenance will be probably one of the few good companies to keep your eye on them. You can start to research on these companies.

In theory, tech companies and tech related companies are good place to start. FB, GOOG, MSFT are top picks. TWTR NVDA too
You have to rationalise moving forward what does covid bring to them and out of the pandemic what they can bring forward to better the place.

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3 Grateful Things:-
1- Awareness of my body. Observing its status. I have been meaning to go for a medical checkup but didnt due to the lockdown. Let's see in the next few weeks if this is possible
2- Talk by Conrad. Picked up a few tips. He is still bearish but the charts/ markets are currently bullish. If SPY break upwards (above the fibonacci, then we might be looking at a strong bull run). Having said that, there is a lot of mixed bull / bear indicators
1) President election year = bullish
2) January barometer - bearish
3) Sell in May and go away - bearish
4) poor economy results (likely but not confirmed) - bearish

3- Bought ingredients for baking bread and making pasta! :D

mco soon to be over...

Three grateful things

- that I am content. Haha

- lost weight 

- did some reading! 

things I made over the past one month includes focaccia bread, normal bread, brownies, kimchi jjigae, dapur fancy's murtabak Maggi, ggyeran pang (Korean egg pancake) 

update

Baked bread

Make kimchi jjigae

Did another round of brownies 

Traded option again

Changed room layout due to water leakage. 

sad

Robynn and Kendy is going to "take a rest" for a period of time while they both explore their own projects. :(

This is a sad day.

huhuhu

https://www.kkbox.com/hk/tc/column/buzz-0-1040-1.html


Made me feel that i should have gone to see them in concert previously.

HAIHH

coronavirus

Malaysia is on MRO, movement restriction order from 18-31 March due to the covid19, to prevent it from spreading further and managing the risk at the moment

In the meantime, played element TD and xherosiege on warcraft 3 with chew.

Played FM again. Managed this 2nd tier Dutch team FC dorchecht. Bought a lot of free players, and sold some of them for 100-200k. Lol. Hopefully can get promotion in my second season with them.

liverpool out!

Good performance from Liverpool vs atletico.

They kept attacking from the start. Got what they deserved when Gini equalized. Should have see it off in normal time if not for our poor finish.

Then Adrian made a bad mistake. :( conceded a goal from nowhere. That gives atletico the drive to defend harder, play their game and they countered, and scored another.

In the end, I am happy with the performance. Unfortunate result. 

March 8

Liverpool won! 2-1 vs Bournemouth

Milner goal line save and pep talk😍😍

Finished reading Jo Nesbos' Knife. Very good and love the ending! Can't wait for the next book 

Gonna be a productive week ahead. Projection, shared drive, Microsoft access

March 2

Got a postcard from Jen. ❤️❤️

Met up with Fynn for dinner, talked about the meditation and Buddhism.

Manage to do some gardening this money. Planted two new pots, refreshed the soil for the current ones and move some soil to the kantan bunch. 

March 1: grateful post

Bought this airasia pass to travel with family, solo or with friends in the coming one year! Ideally for me is to go Korea, Taiwan, China and Australia. Japan if it is Osaka sure! 

We also jog 10k yestrday morning

Celebrated saigujie's bday at one world hotel yesterday too

Bought my tools for making a scoby hotel in the coming weeks and pots for plants in my room

new PM

Malaysia today appointed a new PM after a week's long fiasco in the political scene. We appointed Muhiyiddin, who collaborated with the opposition ie BN / UMNO to obtain a majority vote (this is according to them and Agong) among the MPs.

This is not what we the people want, but we have to accept for the time being. Have faith that the right people, the politician who is currently fighting for us, will no doubt continue their hard work against this poorly arranged, heavily self-interested politicians.

I know that those who have conscience will continue their struggle against the corrupted. What we can do now is continue to believe in them and not give up hope. 

Even if they (the corrupt) get into power now, no doubt those who betrayed the people will get their backlash in the next election. 😊

back from meditation

Grateful stuff

Did the meditation course. Daunting but it is over now. Will write more about in due time. 

Happy Liverpool won against west ham. First game I watched in two weeks? 😂 

Happy that I manage to find time to do my meditation practice yesterday, though I need to improve on the duration. 

.... 

Coronavirus seems to be getting worse in other countries. Unfortunate :( may the virus stop spreading soon. 

meditation course 12-21/2/2020

Starting vipassana course today.

10days

dream 9/2/20

Bad guy fighting on top of the library, with one section there is no side barrier. 

Stealing from library. Go inside library, pretend like you are still a student. Go and get some info. The librarian didn't suspect anything. Manage to exit with the info. 

Ah leng jie2 fridge, Macau, 

Lunch time, saw diyana and chew eating at one restaurant. As we were going to other places to eat, saw chew again, this time he is eating alone, eating pork noodle. He is supposed to eat with di but wants to finish this bowl of pork noodle first. 

Music. Earphones. Ccw using airpod instead of proper music earphones. 

Wednesday

Had dinner with these peep

Received my Jo nesbo book! The knife! Can't wait to read it!

Another day closer to Sunday! 

Productive day at work too! 

grateful post

1) started trading on thinkorswim platform.

2) Liverpool won Shrewsbury 

3) Manage to switch off comp and lights before sleeping (I usually end of falling asleep with everything on) 

weekend!

Three grateful stuff

running for the first time since months! 

gathering with ex colleagues 

Liverpool winning Southampton 4-0

update post.

Fluffed with family. Last year CNY version is preferred for me

TM CNY VERSION. HL played a very good game. Won. By a mile. If he only plays like this more often! 

Glad to spend time with my sis and her family. Not much but I hope the kids enjoyed and learnt something. 

GOALs 2020 Progress (1)

Health
- To schedule a health checkup post meditation class
- More abs /core exercise (progressing - better than last time, but can be better ie do 50 times a day to start)
- Need to start training for my full marathon
Rating 5/10

Emotions & Spirituality
- Both are somehwat linked
- I missed out on reading Buddhist books lately, will cover it back (reading later)
- I did remind myself the way I need to behave by reading my daily reminder as frequent as possible
- Less angry, more calm most of the time, but still not yet 'there'

Rating 4/10

Family
- Learning to accept them for who they are (and not to change them)
- Be more open and accepting when talking to them
- I wrote I should update them daily but I think this kind of stopped for a bit. To restart again soon

Rating 4/10

Finances
- I still find studying 3 hours a day every weekday difficult, perhaps due to my other commitment - ie work which may make it difficult to sustain this activity. Perhaps to revise it to study 2hrs + skip on work days
- Funded my TOS account, now to prepare myself before I plunge into trading options
- I have NOT incorporate QMDJ into trading. To put this into the checklist

Rating 5/10

Adventure
- Nothing yet, just the start of the year
- Revised to remove the visiting China and UK for now
- Suggest to do more hiking to new places: Bukit Kutu and Gunung Datuk. Revisit Gunung Nuang
- Have hiked Bkt Besi, Bkt Gasing and Bkt Saga - so I think this performed better than others

Rating 7/10

Hobby
- Commit time to reading - this one I think I am doing better than other commitments/habit building
- To read bazi for 10 pax in 2020 - so far i have read 2, have another 1 to 2 in pipeline. Let's see
- I have been typing the notes but too long to convert
- Suggest to self to watch finish the 2020 Zodiac videos first - finish this note first
- My korean practice have died down due to CNY + sister coming back for visit

Rating 6/10

Mission
Rating 0/10 - Have not done anythign on sustainable living, in fact probably did worse as I did not use much of my straw in KL or in PG this month

Friends

I need to be better in how I talk and react to HL's texts.

Rating 3/10


Intimate Relationship

Rating 5/10 : To find the meaning of love and what do I want from it.

nephew and how to be better uncle

My method was trying to relate him to somewhat similar situations and hopes he gets that emotional part (that the opposing party will feel) or the rational aspect (that he should account for when making his decisions)

Lol. 

3 grateful things!

1) Uninstalled some apps, including a game

2) another year already. I think yday was a good (extended) family time.

3) did hiking on sunday

three happy photos

Alisson's celebration 

Someone enjoyed my brownies 

A dialect book at naisse in KL

lfc Singapore store

penang trip

Grateful things for today

1) found a solution to address how sis can deal with Ethan. By deducting his minutes on the phone

2) did my exercise in the morning. 

3) manage to drive through to ipoh without feeling tired. This even though I didnt sleep that early yesterday. 

grateful for the week post

1) that I sort of raised the potential issue with tz. I think it's good to have it out before going any further

2) trading. I think this week was ok even though they're weren't many opportunities. Ok that I am a is determined

3) mahjong. You have to believe, and have right attitude and mindset. 😂

hiking: Bukit Saga 2020

I was not that surprised when I heard from yeeli two weeks back that she was going to hike Bkt. Saga. I have been waiting to get confirmation from someone that Bkt Saga was still open. She did that for me. Thank you Yeeli!

We went there yesterday. Emily, jyi, yf and Wang Wei. We got off to a bad start as the construction path was Muddy and it sinks in easily, and goes in deeply too.

Once we passed that, then we start the climb up. The path was A (from the residence). I realized during this hike how steep Saga really is. Wow. Each time you look up and can see the angles.  Like a very steep staircase. Crazy. 😂

We took about 1.5hrs to reach the peak. There was a guy who was sharing with us that there will be a group that is hiking to the lookout point. To and from will take approximately four hours. Wished I could have join them.

2 years already?

By end of this year I can eat steak etc like normal. Though I think i may stick to my current diet. It does make it easier when I eat at home or out with friends. 

2020 Resolutions

I have set some targets for 2020

Among them are:
1) Spend 3 hours on trading on weekdays
2) Help to provide bazi to 10 pax
3) Go for medical checkup
4) get in shape (abs/ belly)
5) become healthier mentally (more calm, less emotional, at peace, not easily annoyed etc)
6) pickup a language (korean/ chinese)
7) be more kind and friendly to everyone
8) accept people around me as they are

I also have to do a review on a month to month basis to see how I am achieving the goals so far..

penang trip

Had dinner with family etc last night. Steamboat. 

Reached penang abt 3pm yday 

Watched Liverpool on aotg this morning. 4-0.very entertaining game. 

Visiting kaima and 2yee, bought biscuits for ah theng. Now praying to mom

one new thought

I will practice to set a  time not to be angry, yell or shout at anyone everyday. 

I also should start appreciating everyone on what they are good in doing. For example, Kf, although emotional, is a helpful and direct person.

Review on Christmas :

Gathering with family for lunch. I am glad they liked the brownies! We end up talking about shares and investment too

In the evening, gaming session with the guys. Chew ffk. We played overcooked, hidden in sight and burglar bros. Because chew ffk, he offered to treat us dinner. Thank you Chew! 

At night, pack and got ready for my trip to Pg. 

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Finished reading silenced by kristina ohlsson. Good stuff. 

what happened today: negativeness

Rejection.

It happened two days ago and today also, though for different situation/issue. 

First was a good direct question from a female acquaintance asking me why I still team to her when she tried not to reply me. I realized then she didn't want to talk to me, which I think is a good thing that she shared with me because I wouldn't sense it (but of course it still hurts somewhat). I was somewhat affected by it right after ie my mood. I can understand it may not be my fault but it still take time to digest the emotion and let it out of the body. 

Second was from a cousin. We ended up bringing the same item for the party. She stated dessert, I said cake + brownies. Turns out we are both bringing burnt cheesecake. She didn't like that fact. I can understand, and I can also understand her reaction. But isn't my response just as similar as hers.? She called but I did not answer because I don't know what I would say to her. I don't think is a big thing. Really. I think my end, I should ask what dessert is she bringing before hand, but I am sure her reaction wouldn't be this bad if it is a different type of dessert that I am bringing. 

Anyway. Rants! 

Oh, I have also been bad at controlling my time on fifa. Need to control! 

3 grateful things 

1) meiyee as a peer for qimen and trading 

2) been trading more consistently, and profiting overall

3) I have been sleeping well ie I did not wake up in between, well, not as badly as before. And I tend to wakeup later too

Update on HPH & Weekend

So, I have finished setting up myself for HPH.

I have went with Habitfull and Habitica for tracking my habits/things to do on a day-to-day basis. I would recommend Habitica toANYONE who wants to build up a good habit, or stop a bad habit. Out of all habit building apps, this is the one that comes with full features without having to pay a single cent. You only need to pay if you want a an improved hero (it is a part game too)

I have also installed a pomodoro app to help me study. I tried it on Friday and it works, not efficient enough but at least it works to some extent. Will keep it up.

I am also using an app called AppBlock. My my I think this is the app that is worth paying if you feel you are spending too much time on IG and Youtube.

So I done most of my goals thus far except for reading news yesterday night and exercise this morning (which I still can make it as long as I do it before 12 tonight)

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Weekend activities

Imperial 2030 + PR Friday night
HL won Imperial and KS won PR (tied with me on golds and points, won by having a corn!)

Imperial was good I think, but I made the mistake of investing too fast. Should have kept some money instead of keep investing when I had the chance.

PR was a fast game but I should have taken the custom house instead of the statue

I also watched Jumanji this morning. That was good too!

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Oh yeah, I had a bad flu since Thursday. So I have been consuming the following so far:-

1. Ginger + Lemon/Apple juice
2. 100 Plus
3. Porridge
4. Vege + Rice
5. Kimchi
6. Pomegranate juice
7. Water, a lot of water
8. Tea
9. Honey + yogurt
10. Cereal + milk
11. Fish head noodle
12. Potato chips (BAD i know)

I think I would have been better if I slept a bit more.  I do feel much better now after an 1.5hr nap in the afternoon.

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Update on HPH

So I've finished reading High Performance Habit by Brendon Burchard a few days ago and planned to follow his guide on improving my habits to convert into meaningful results.

For the past two days, I have been drawing out goals and sub-goals, both for life and 2020 in the following categories:

1. Health
2. Friends
3. Intimate Relationship
4. Family
5. Spirituality
6. Emotions
7. Work/Mission
8. Finance
9. Hobby
10. Adventure

I have completed all of it, except for carving out a more detailed plan for my Primary Interest: Trading, and perhaps Bazi/ language too. Will need to do the 5 key moves + Progressing Mastery for these activities (to-do-today)

I also accept that I need to find my "Why" on committing my time into these activities. That will help me stay on course and push myself to work on it harder. I will also complete this within the next few days.

I have downloaded Microsoft To-Do app to see if it can help me to track my daily progress. As is, I have a list of activities to do on a daily basis (which will help me achieve my goals I have written for 2020).

So let's see

I should do a review of my performance on a monthly basis to see how far I have come. I have written where I am now in my goals so that will be good to compare against later on.

Dream 10/12

Minyoung visit me in Malaysia. We go on a road trip with a bunch of kids like a field trip. Then we had a big dinner where we have old smdu friends and family gather together

She was eating with some bunch guys from du whereas I was eating at another table

Then there was a group of guys who wanted me to follow them to go and play paintball at an amusement park. We shot most the guys when later we were arrested, we realized that the area is a government secret agency and an artifact was stolen. We were jailed. 

We get to play that round again and narrator suggest to dial #411 for police when the time is right. I rang the police when I saw a bunch of corpses. They came immediately on a helicopter.

I showed them the bodies and then bring them to where they are having the auction. The police overhead the bidder and told him the weapon he is auctioning now, there is only one unit in the world and it belongs to them. The police then made their arrest

I later complain to my friend on how Hl kept blaming me for not finishing his work 

Homo Deus

Chapter 1
The book begins by talking abt the change in how we approach famine, plague & war since the early civilisation (it is becoming lesser of a problem as we advance our civilisation with technology & improvements. People are less likely to starve to death than overeating .

Whereas many people died due to plague in the past, the number of deaths have been reducing as we progress forward. From millions (Black Death 1330s) down to tens of thousands (Ebola 2014). Wars is now rarer than ever and most countries will put war as a last option. Countries benefit more from trading with their competitors than waging war with them.

Now with our tech advancements, we are looking to prolong life, or even live on forever. And if this does come true, it may affect our marriage (will "till death do us apart" still applies?), our career (changing career in your 50s may not be deem "too late" anymore)

Right to happiness
How should we measure a successful life/country? By income/GDP or by happiness/GDH?
Should we consume drugs in order to stay happy? What if once we gain our happiness, in order to achieve the similar feelings, we need to strive for the experience again (promotion, falling in love)?

To attain real happiness, humans need to slow down the pursuit of pleasant sensations, not to accelerate it.

Be a better human version, by biological engineering, non-organic & cyborg.
Biological is done by doing the rewiring of the DNA etc, cyborg is attaching a bionic attachment onto a human.

And if everyone in the near future is making biological improvement to their babies, would you? If you do not, then your kid may be left behind in class / work.

Lawns are a sign of your wealth (That is the history of lawns). If you are rich, you can afford to maintain a luscious garden.

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I didnt write it after that.. :D
just gonna post this out

Games I tried on Origin

Recently I have received a free one month access to Origin Access, whereby you get to play a selection of games that is parked under the "Vault" for free. So, obviously, I made good use of this perk/benefit to try out some of the games that have been on my wishlist.

#1 Mutant Year Zero

This game is X-com esque but you can only control up to 3 characters. There is also an aspect of sneak/stealth, indicated by your torchlight. I find the graphic design for this game amazing. Although there aren't that many skills available for the characters to enjoy different playstyle, the game is still worth playing. Story line arc is predictable but nevertheless still good.

#2 They Are Billions

Strategy and RPG game where you have different missions so certain games involves controlling a hero to explore a dungeon whereas other missions you are playing real time strategy (but you can pause). This game I particularly was looking to play mainly because it involves zombie and upgrading your tech level concept. It is great to play BUT FREAKING DIFFICULT. There are just too many zombies like it should but too many too enjoy... lol

#3 Into the Breach
I just played this today and finished playing it already. A solid game like FTL where once you finished the game, you just want to have a go at it again to see the different combinations of robots/mechs can lead you to the end. I finished the game twice in -3-5 hours? Decided to uninstall it after because it will be too additive.

Next games to try: Tyranny, Frost Punk, Shadow Tactics

grateful #1 7/12/19

Three things I am grateful about yesterday.

1) Successfully lead a group of accountants to hike up and down Bukit Wawasan. I was also pleased that they enjoyed it and found a few like minded hikers that I hope we will meet and hike again soon! 

2) I baked brownies and brought it to Eugene and Hexiang's Maxine's 100day event. Joanne tried it and complimented it by saying "I cannot differentiate this and tricia's brownies." it definitely has to be the highest compliment I received for my brownies.

3) I went and watch movie Knives Out with Grace after that. It was an entertaining movie but l sorting suspected something either the old guy is still alive or the murderer is one of them. Anyway, I brought my newly bought water bottle and almost left it there! I ran back to the cinema and managed to get it back from the cleaners, who dumped it into rubbish bag already.