Tuesday, 15 January 2008
Sunday, 13 January 2008
looks may deceive, so can the title.
i enjoyed today, though i did nothing much.
a friend accompany me throughout the day (day as in afternoon- evening). played literati. fun. Ba, Ka, Tun, Pis, Fa. simple joys.
henglean commented that I am a pessimist trying to be an optimist. I look at things negatively but I try to find the positives from the negatives. Example, I screwed up at something, and apologize because I believe that apologizing can make things better.
I find the comment really interesting and sensible.
slept at Kammo's place the past two nights. going home later. have to go bank and tee tit first. no $$$, only 0.5$. laughs.
btw, nan's blog got a mini-drama going on. hope everything is going to be alright. true friends will always be friends right?
talked to kitmun today. can't wait to see her in person and cry! [either I miss her too much (v.unlikely) or cos' I can't tease her anymore].
a friend accompany me throughout the day (day as in afternoon- evening). played literati. fun. Ba, Ka, Tun, Pis, Fa. simple joys.
henglean commented that I am a pessimist trying to be an optimist. I look at things negatively but I try to find the positives from the negatives. Example, I screwed up at something, and apologize because I believe that apologizing can make things better.
I find the comment really interesting and sensible.
slept at Kammo's place the past two nights. going home later. have to go bank and tee tit first. no $$$, only 0.5$. laughs.
btw, nan's blog got a mini-drama going on. hope everything is going to be alright. true friends will always be friends right?
talked to kitmun today. can't wait to see her in person and cry! [either I miss her too much (v.unlikely) or cos' I can't tease her anymore].
Saturday, 12 January 2008
What's Your Horoscope
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.
November
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.
i want to but,..
i want to blog about PD, but dont want to do it w/o the pics
I worked for 4 days last week (Thursday was a public hol). I hate my work. I have to call companies and ask them to do survey and they won't get something in return. And sudahlah ppl wouldn't want to do an individual survey, where got people willing to sacrifice their working hours to do something for this.. (Therefore you have to convince their big boss the value of this survey and make him/her delegate it to their chuk chai(s)) lol.
I had an extraordinary journey yday. I went to Bangi. Now, I am not sure how true is this, but apprently its damn near to Nilai in Negeri Sembilan. Its basically the other end of Kajang. The cab charged me RM35 to go there. (I am going to be reimburse on this so its ok)
NEways, the person i met with, Mr Woo, he was nice enough and friendly enough to talk to me. Iwas on my own then w/o Han, so its weird but at the same time i was calm, no nervous feeling, though i know i should have questioned him more. Anyways, after the interview was over, i think we both chatted about another 15mins more on Malaysia, the current situation, politics etc... which is really nice. :)
After the interview, I had to go back to either KL or back home ma, prob is... WHERE TO GET A CAB... I see not even a single mode of public transportation around, no taxi. zero. no bus. not even those laoyah ones. nothing. But its okay. luckily han gave me the taxi cab number which i called. They say that i have to wait for 20minutes, which is fine by me... considering that it is far away from any nearby big cities.
anywho, the think is that i waited for more than twenty minutes but then the person still havent come mar, so i decided to be a pester and call up the company again. they put me on hold and later told me that the cab was around the corner.
awhile later, i saw this laoyah cab, not your std proton saga cab at the junction. w/o hesitation i know its him la. but just to be sure i go next to him and ask, I called you right? to One Utama? he nodd his head. i sat in the cab
not even 5mins later on the highway, i received a call frm a 019 number. this guy was saying that he is already at the place and cant find me. the guy on the phone is the ACTUAL taxi cab i called. so he was pissed and claims he is the victim (which is true) and i was pissed too at that idiot ahole taxi driver who conned me. anyway, i asked the 'victim' what can i do for him now that the damage has alrdy been done, he said, he wants some compensation.
finally, we decided to meet at UKM. that bitch ass wanted rm15 frm me.. i gave him 10, followed by rm1 (he claims toll is rm2... i was sitting next to him when he paid rm0.70... T_T ) dah lah already so much drama and i was meant to go to pavilion with cm to watch enchanted.. i waited at the guard house/nearby the masjid for the other cabby to come pick me. he called me moments later telling me that he is at the guard house near the MARKET... T_T i really wanna faint d... then i say lor.. not MARKET. MOSQUE MASJID... zzz and he keep yapping at me dunno why also.... neways, i let him talked to the security guard and that guy, gave him the same directions as I did, and he finally found me.. T_T
we had a good chat on the way back, but still.. he was trying to put the blame on me for taking the other cab... but seriously lor
1) where got so ngam when i was told the taxi is AROUND the corner , got another one and only taxi i saw since i reached that place come out of nowhere?!?
2) that idiot said yes..
3) i wasnt given any fucking codes la!!!!!
zzzz
went out with nancy and chingmay to yumcha at williams, then saw chew over there with his workmates... later king shung joined us. i think we spent about 2hrs over there. there was this point where cm and nan went to the washroom and i was left alone for 10+mins. twice the waiter came by wanting to clean the table (SO TEMPTING TO ACCEPT THAT.. then no need to pay.. lol)
damn jin lor, throughout the yumcha nancy keep cha me say i wont get a gf... T_T that i am not goodlooking etc... *sighhh WE LL SEE IF U LL GET ONE Ler *bluek*
now at kammo's house, been here since last night... nothing to do.. thats why i m blogging.
dunno wat to do tonight also.
wondering???
can ask rebecca out, can ask alicia, can ask cindy
can ask angela, can ask joanne... i think..
u must be wondering, all gurls one... well, i only got one group of guy friends ma... they are my std group... so everyday also will see them if they are around le. been spending time at hl's house lately.
'follow your heart, you will find a way, to the place where you longed to be'
I worked for 4 days last week (Thursday was a public hol). I hate my work. I have to call companies and ask them to do survey and they won't get something in return. And sudahlah ppl wouldn't want to do an individual survey, where got people willing to sacrifice their working hours to do something for this.. (Therefore you have to convince their big boss the value of this survey and make him/her delegate it to their chuk chai(s)) lol.
I had an extraordinary journey yday. I went to Bangi. Now, I am not sure how true is this, but apprently its damn near to Nilai in Negeri Sembilan. Its basically the other end of Kajang. The cab charged me RM35 to go there. (I am going to be reimburse on this so its ok)
NEways, the person i met with, Mr Woo, he was nice enough and friendly enough to talk to me. Iwas on my own then w/o Han, so its weird but at the same time i was calm, no nervous feeling, though i know i should have questioned him more. Anyways, after the interview was over, i think we both chatted about another 15mins more on Malaysia, the current situation, politics etc... which is really nice. :)
After the interview, I had to go back to either KL or back home ma, prob is... WHERE TO GET A CAB... I see not even a single mode of public transportation around, no taxi. zero. no bus. not even those laoyah ones. nothing. But its okay. luckily han gave me the taxi cab number which i called. They say that i have to wait for 20minutes, which is fine by me... considering that it is far away from any nearby big cities.
anywho, the think is that i waited for more than twenty minutes but then the person still havent come mar, so i decided to be a pester and call up the company again. they put me on hold and later told me that the cab was around the corner.
awhile later, i saw this laoyah cab, not your std proton saga cab at the junction. w/o hesitation i know its him la. but just to be sure i go next to him and ask, I called you right? to One Utama? he nodd his head. i sat in the cab
not even 5mins later on the highway, i received a call frm a 019 number. this guy was saying that he is already at the place and cant find me. the guy on the phone is the ACTUAL taxi cab i called. so he was pissed and claims he is the victim (which is true) and i was pissed too at that idiot ahole taxi driver who conned me. anyway, i asked the 'victim' what can i do for him now that the damage has alrdy been done, he said, he wants some compensation.
finally, we decided to meet at UKM. that bitch ass wanted rm15 frm me.. i gave him 10, followed by rm1 (he claims toll is rm2... i was sitting next to him when he paid rm0.70... T_T ) dah lah already so much drama and i was meant to go to pavilion with cm to watch enchanted.. i waited at the guard house/nearby the masjid for the other cabby to come pick me. he called me moments later telling me that he is at the guard house near the MARKET... T_T i really wanna faint d... then i say lor.. not MARKET. MOSQUE MASJID... zzz and he keep yapping at me dunno why also.... neways, i let him talked to the security guard and that guy, gave him the same directions as I did, and he finally found me.. T_T
we had a good chat on the way back, but still.. he was trying to put the blame on me for taking the other cab... but seriously lor
1) where got so ngam when i was told the taxi is AROUND the corner , got another one and only taxi i saw since i reached that place come out of nowhere?!?
2) that idiot said yes..
3) i wasnt given any fucking codes la!!!!!
zzzz
went out with nancy and chingmay to yumcha at williams, then saw chew over there with his workmates... later king shung joined us. i think we spent about 2hrs over there. there was this point where cm and nan went to the washroom and i was left alone for 10+mins. twice the waiter came by wanting to clean the table (SO TEMPTING TO ACCEPT THAT.. then no need to pay.. lol)
damn jin lor, throughout the yumcha nancy keep cha me say i wont get a gf... T_T that i am not goodlooking etc... *sighhh WE LL SEE IF U LL GET ONE Ler *bluek*
now at kammo's house, been here since last night... nothing to do.. thats why i m blogging.
dunno wat to do tonight also.
wondering???
can ask rebecca out, can ask alicia, can ask cindy
can ask angela, can ask joanne... i think..
u must be wondering, all gurls one... well, i only got one group of guy friends ma... they are my std group... so everyday also will see them if they are around le. been spending time at hl's house lately.
'follow your heart, you will find a way, to the place where you longed to be'
Tuesday, 8 January 2008
time will tell.
time is time, what time is, what it will be, what it was, it is time
what happened happened, whats in the past you can't change
you cannot turn back time to mend the wrongs you made
you can't make time goes slower during those precious moments and grasp every second of it
nor can you make time goes faster to ease the pain
you cannot change time
time will heal the wound
question is how long is the time? an hour? a day? two? a month? six? a lifetime?
i don't know, but even it does heal, its different from what it used to be.
time,
when my heart breaks,
a piece of me died with it
and it will never be the same
people change with time
better or worse, i don't know
what will i become? i might be happy, but how sincere is it?
i don't really care,
i am heartbroken
time
i know that maybe all the while i m lying to myself.
to hope for something that you know is no longer there
time
i believe that time can bring my hope back
i m in my own world
when in suffering, people choose the road that leads to less pain
mine is self denial
to believe that what i think and hope is there
to see something that no one else could
and dream
it is always much easier that way than accepting the truth
time
i can smile, i can laugh, but inside i am slowly losing myself
maybe writing this made me feel better, but if it does its only momentarily
in the end the sorrows and sadness will overcome what's left of you in me
time
i am imagining things to make things easier for me
to grasp onto the very last hope that is slowly fading into dark
to hold on tightly to your hand that is slipping away
i choose not to let go, but i know i am lying to myself, my mind & heart
time
i can cry, i can beg, i can fall in love, i can touch, kiss and hug, i can jump around and laugh out loud, i can go wherever i want,
but what it is to me now,
is nothing but emptiness
i am hollow
time
maybe time will tell how much i really love(d) you
when i go on to my trips, when i fly away,
will i still think about you, dream about you, want you?
will i crave for your touch and feel the way i feel today that night?
time
no matter what, it doesn't make a difference
what if i still do, you don't
because how i still feel, i only make myself feel worse
time
i want to feel bright
the sunshine glaring on my days and make it as shiny as the stars
i want to feel happiness
like how we used to feel when we were little,
i want to cry
like i did when i lose someone meaningful
i want to dream
of you and me
which one is more difficult? convincing that I don't love you anymore or that I've already let you go.
what happened happened, whats in the past you can't change
you cannot turn back time to mend the wrongs you made
you can't make time goes slower during those precious moments and grasp every second of it
nor can you make time goes faster to ease the pain
you cannot change time
time will heal the wound
question is how long is the time? an hour? a day? two? a month? six? a lifetime?
i don't know, but even it does heal, its different from what it used to be.
time,
when my heart breaks,
a piece of me died with it
and it will never be the same
people change with time
better or worse, i don't know
what will i become? i might be happy, but how sincere is it?
i don't really care,
i am heartbroken
time
i know that maybe all the while i m lying to myself.
to hope for something that you know is no longer there
time
i believe that time can bring my hope back
i m in my own world
when in suffering, people choose the road that leads to less pain
mine is self denial
to believe that what i think and hope is there
to see something that no one else could
and dream
it is always much easier that way than accepting the truth
time
i can smile, i can laugh, but inside i am slowly losing myself
maybe writing this made me feel better, but if it does its only momentarily
in the end the sorrows and sadness will overcome what's left of you in me
time
i am imagining things to make things easier for me
to grasp onto the very last hope that is slowly fading into dark
to hold on tightly to your hand that is slipping away
i choose not to let go, but i know i am lying to myself, my mind & heart
time
i can cry, i can beg, i can fall in love, i can touch, kiss and hug, i can jump around and laugh out loud, i can go wherever i want,
but what it is to me now,
is nothing but emptiness
i am hollow
time
maybe time will tell how much i really love(d) you
when i go on to my trips, when i fly away,
will i still think about you, dream about you, want you?
will i crave for your touch and feel the way i feel today that night?
time
no matter what, it doesn't make a difference
what if i still do, you don't
because how i still feel, i only make myself feel worse
time
i want to feel bright
the sunshine glaring on my days and make it as shiny as the stars
i want to feel happiness
like how we used to feel when we were little,
i want to cry
like i did when i lose someone meaningful
i want to dream
of you and me
which one is more difficult? convincing that I don't love you anymore or that I've already let you go.
*written on 17/12/06
everything you are and everything i'm not
i dont think my posts are dry, even though they are somewhat like that. i think i write better and a lil' more flowery than before... :P
i started work yday, didnt know that calling companies would be such a pain. really needs a lot of patience and perseverance to get through this job. i thought of quitting already.. lol, only cos i am afraid that i cannot help them as good as others. but hey, i ll look at it and say, i know i can do it.. just tryx3... the other trainee is rainee from help too. haven't met her b4 but she knows a someone who is my friend's friend...
i started work yday, didnt know that calling companies would be such a pain. really needs a lot of patience and perseverance to get through this job. i thought of quitting already.. lol, only cos i am afraid that i cannot help them as good as others. but hey, i ll look at it and say, i know i can do it.. just tryx3... the other trainee is rainee from help too. haven't met her b4 but she knows a someone who is my friend's friend...
bla
i talked to ja the other day, talked to hl yday, talked to huansin on sunday (same day as ja). mmm my sister said i never really opened up to her, thats true. but at the same time, i never really open myself to anyone... except my ex(s), i dont really share my stuff with the guys, girls at times maybe but that was during high sch.... not no longer ler. minli not here, hexiang not as close as before, jiayin i wud say is the closest, but still.. quite far apart lor. but i got yak at her lar lol... others.. hmm.. come and go kua. maybe when kitmun come back i ll kidnap her and torture her with my voice. lololo
i slept on the couch last night. i was tired. when hl was sending back i was already 3/4 asleep. too tired.
didnt really eat anything yday night other than a piece of Jen's brownies, bang chang kueh, crispy pancake and a piece of siu mai. wasnt like i was doing it on purpose. just takde selera untuk makan. (but i did eat some chips tis morning cos i was stressing on the calls -- so fixed back d)
didnt really eat anything yday night other than a piece of Jen's brownies, bang chang kueh, crispy pancake and a piece of siu mai. wasnt like i was doing it on purpose. just takde selera untuk makan. (but i did eat some chips tis morning cos i was stressing on the calls -- so fixed back d)
koko krunch is made of mainly 1 - wheat... 2 - sugar. xxxx Ccw got it right..
later (not today, sometime) i will write out everything i have inside my phone and jst post it here. =) i only want to do it because i want to be more open, to everyone, not for anything else. :)
i like my nick
'eh eh, eh eh, eh eh, eh eh, eh eh eh........'
you can try guessing where its from :) hint. song.
you can try guessing where its from :) hint. song.
might be going to singapore later tis weekend. i dont know. i want to, but not sure how to survive overthere.. lol we'll see.. hope everything turns out okay la
'i want to see a sign to tell me that i should believe'
Sunday, 6 January 2008
pd and half-full
half-full or half empty? w/o hesitation i choose the first one. optimistic. its not that good afterall
just came back from pd, tmr starting work.
anna and joann's grad gift to me has yet to work in any of the comps i tried today. :(
talked about alot of things during pd trips. i teared at one point when i was telling honseng how i feel about them. quite emo
after that, i woke up and accepted that change is something people face. brace it
:)
face the change
just came back from pd, tmr starting work.
anna and joann's grad gift to me has yet to work in any of the comps i tried today. :(
talked about alot of things during pd trips. i teared at one point when i was telling honseng how i feel about them. quite emo
after that, i woke up and accepted that change is something people face. brace it
:)
face the change
Friday, 4 January 2008
encounters with...
b f f
best friends forever - i learnt the meaning of this initial when i read the gossips etc abt some female celebs, most likely paris and nicole
the other time i rmb using the quote was when me kafaii ccw and another guy going to klang for bkt. i think other guy is daniel. we were making words from the plate alphabets and i saw BFFxxxx....
the guys laughed at me.
kit mun called me bff... i m not sure if thats a good thing...
lol
best friends forever - i learnt the meaning of this initial when i read the gossips etc abt some female celebs, most likely paris and nicole
the other time i rmb using the quote was when me kafaii ccw and another guy going to klang for bkt. i think other guy is daniel. we were making words from the plate alphabets and i saw BFFxxxx....
the guys laughed at me.
kit mun called me bff... i m not sure if thats a good thing...
lol
Drastic Fantastic
thats the title of the next album i am going to purchase. its from KT Tunstall. she rocks. I wanted to buy the cd yday, but I wasn't sure how good it is. I just checked wikipedia and apparently its well received, album filled with Bursting hits :)
I purchased Alicia Keys As I Am. I listened to it yday and today. No One is perfect. The first two songs too. Then there's I need you and a few others. Honestly, I never expect myself to buy any of her album. Its not that shes not great, in fact, shes wonderful! Piano playing, song writing, strong voice, Alicia is someone i would idolized. But, maybe its her music, RnB, which is not really my flavor. However, I read the paper a few days back and it was a review on this album. They said that it sounds different, after a long year for her. I dont know why I bought it, but I like it.
I am still waiting on my Taylor Swift, no sound/noise frm Kit Mun yet, last resort is talk to Big sis and ask her buy for me. hee. oH, i managed to convince Nancy to listen to her music. I listened to her yday , and I find it really impressive, her voice. :D Can't wait to get my hands on her album :D
Then, Lyd and Nancy and I went out yday to MV. We watched Rendition, a movie which to me is better than Blood Diamond. It shows to me that no matter how bad your govt is, other countries can be worse. I slept abt maybe 20mins during the movie, nt cos it was boring but i was tired :P
Nancy gave me this Shanghai letter knife if i m not wrong, and my S.H.E!! I cant wait to listne to it... will prolly bring to PD
Today, i watched I am Legend. I really dont know why ppl say its OK only. its really good. or least above average. 'zombies' + a Sign ending + something different than usual, its 7/10 movie to me.
i slept at ccw's house yday too. hehee.
i ll be starting work on monday, 9-5pm at kl sentral, what work? atm, its calling companies to sch interview with my boss. lol. rm400 a week if anyone asks. Nancy starting work on Monday to, too bad she is at uptown. :(
met up with Ching May today. She sometimes remind me of my 2nd sis, just because she is dark.. heee lol. its nice catching up, she's still mostly the same, nth much changed since i last talked to her in person. thats how i feel at least.
Ks' friend is one year older. i shouldnt blog about tis.
later i ll borrow kammo's car to drive home. tmr i ll drive it to PD. pray that i ll be safe and lucky and nothing bad will happen. i want a safe journey, accident free.
'I don't know how care about people, but that does not mean that I don't care about them'
I purchased Alicia Keys As I Am. I listened to it yday and today. No One is perfect. The first two songs too. Then there's I need you and a few others. Honestly, I never expect myself to buy any of her album. Its not that shes not great, in fact, shes wonderful! Piano playing, song writing, strong voice, Alicia is someone i would idolized. But, maybe its her music, RnB, which is not really my flavor. However, I read the paper a few days back and it was a review on this album. They said that it sounds different, after a long year for her. I dont know why I bought it, but I like it.
I am still waiting on my Taylor Swift, no sound/noise frm Kit Mun yet, last resort is talk to Big sis and ask her buy for me. hee. oH, i managed to convince Nancy to listen to her music. I listened to her yday , and I find it really impressive, her voice. :D Can't wait to get my hands on her album :D
Then, Lyd and Nancy and I went out yday to MV. We watched Rendition, a movie which to me is better than Blood Diamond. It shows to me that no matter how bad your govt is, other countries can be worse. I slept abt maybe 20mins during the movie, nt cos it was boring but i was tired :P
Nancy gave me this Shanghai letter knife if i m not wrong, and my S.H.E!! I cant wait to listne to it... will prolly bring to PD
Today, i watched I am Legend. I really dont know why ppl say its OK only. its really good. or least above average. 'zombies' + a Sign ending + something different than usual, its 7/10 movie to me.
i slept at ccw's house yday too. hehee.
i ll be starting work on monday, 9-5pm at kl sentral, what work? atm, its calling companies to sch interview with my boss. lol. rm400 a week if anyone asks. Nancy starting work on Monday to, too bad she is at uptown. :(
met up with Ching May today. She sometimes remind me of my 2nd sis, just because she is dark.. heee lol. its nice catching up, she's still mostly the same, nth much changed since i last talked to her in person. thats how i feel at least.
Ks' friend is one year older. i shouldnt blog about tis.
later i ll borrow kammo's car to drive home. tmr i ll drive it to PD. pray that i ll be safe and lucky and nothing bad will happen. i want a safe journey, accident free.
'I don't know how care about people, but that does not mean that I don't care about them'
Tuesday, 1 January 2008
realisation... and oh, 2008.
hey hey,
i think today is the day that i have most hours of sleep since i came back. i slept abt 2 hrs in the noon and prolly crashed yday night abt 3am and woke up in the morning ard 9ish. thats 8 hrs!!! lol
Happy 2008 to everyone who is reading this. have a great one, hope all of u have HIGHER resolutions (i find this really funny cos it ties with the graphic res. lol) and achieve them within the next coming 12months! :)
what are my resolutions? i dont think i have any, yet. maybe lose weight, but thats not new. lol
anyways, the new camera, my Sw, is working her way up. i tried the Shoot and Select func today and its really awesomee... and I can actualy alter the isos and etc, unlike wat the salesperson told me. xx
i read 1/2 of the manual, and i m still learning to play around with it. with the 2gb card, i can take about 1000+ pics, which is crazy!!! can't wait till one day i go crazy and just take everything from early morning till late night :D
i drove kammo's car the past few days, but i returned it yday. i dont really want to make myself feel accustomed to having a car, as i dont. i dont mind not having a car really. just that i have to trouble ppl fetching me back, and its not near also. seksyen 17 is really out of the way for EVERYONE. everyone. (unless nancy come to ou and then go back la :P) or we du ppl go to kl/mv and thne come back, that ll work too.
anyways, i ll be going for an interview tmr. i got referred to the job by jojo. i wud say its a telemarketing kinda thing, just that you call companies and get them to schedule an interview with the company that i might be working for. rm400 a week, thats really good.. compare to the VT's pay... lol.. (poor ian and joanne). hopefully all goes well, then at least i ll have something to keep myself busy with while waiting for other parts of my life to progress.
will be going out to curve later to see if i can buy the shirt that i really wanted but they dont have M size in ou. see how lor.
oh... i m a leech. i dont online at home. usually i on9 from my aunt's place. now i am hl's place.. hee.. parasite in disguise as this glass eyed boy with a white t shirt and jeans that are long that the end part got soaked into the puddle of rain water.
i watched Guess3 today. it was great. so ngam got S.h.E summo.. i think they are hosting it again. i feel a sense of comfort in the afternoon today, of being by myself. :)
everyone is moving on, i don't want to stay behind. i won't
so i'll sit up now and start walking.
:)
'Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end' - Semisonic's Closing time
Sunday, 30 December 2007
i paid a deposit for my soon to be camera
yes! i paid rm100 for my soon to be camera, olympus 795sw! :)
my SWeetie
:)
just nice to bring to pd and test its usage....
hohoho
then mmm... my cousin's wife give birth to a lil girl. :) congrats to him and the wife and my kammo lol
hmm went out wit EY vt on Friday. it was ok i guess.. takes time for things to be like how they were used to be like... somehow i feel that everyone wasnt really in the mood.... though they want to be. i think all of us dont really knw what to do, though all of us wanted to do something, together.. thats how i feel at least anyway..
yday i went out wit ming2 and jiayin. it was kinda nice. tried jcool donut... comparing with the 3 pieces of donuts frm big apple, its pretty much the same to me.
oh yeahh.. i realised that the jcool's q is long only because of their inefficiency to process the payment counter better. everyone are queuing up to pay, but the cashier is busy with other duties as well... if she was given a sole task to manage the payment, and maybe perhaps have an assistant to help her out, i m sure that the line wouldnt be as long as they were.. this is my 2 cents
now i m at chew's place. going to play winning 11 with him and kafaii... wanted to text someone just now but then jiayin msged me. lol
it takes time
it takes time
it takes time
slowly. everything will be okay. :) smile!!!
"And you think you know.
And I would like to think so,
But do you know that when you go,
I fall apart" The Wreckers - The Good Kind
its the best part of the song to me. esp when michelle sing the I fall apart part... she drags it and raise her pitch. and the drums and guitars 'beats' faster.
love it.
can't find Taylor Swift's CD. can someone buy for me? i m going to ask kitmun la :)
hopefully she can! :D
texting her later
thats all.
my SWeetie
:)
just nice to bring to pd and test its usage....
hohoho
then mmm... my cousin's wife give birth to a lil girl. :) congrats to him and the wife and my kammo lol
hmm went out wit EY vt on Friday. it was ok i guess.. takes time for things to be like how they were used to be like... somehow i feel that everyone wasnt really in the mood.... though they want to be. i think all of us dont really knw what to do, though all of us wanted to do something, together.. thats how i feel at least anyway..
yday i went out wit ming2 and jiayin. it was kinda nice. tried jcool donut... comparing with the 3 pieces of donuts frm big apple, its pretty much the same to me.
oh yeahh.. i realised that the jcool's q is long only because of their inefficiency to process the payment counter better. everyone are queuing up to pay, but the cashier is busy with other duties as well... if she was given a sole task to manage the payment, and maybe perhaps have an assistant to help her out, i m sure that the line wouldnt be as long as they were.. this is my 2 cents
now i m at chew's place. going to play winning 11 with him and kafaii... wanted to text someone just now but then jiayin msged me. lol
it takes time
it takes time
it takes time
slowly. everything will be okay. :) smile!!!
"And you think you know.
And I would like to think so,
But do you know that when you go,
I fall apart" The Wreckers - The Good Kind
its the best part of the song to me. esp when michelle sing the I fall apart part... she drags it and raise her pitch. and the drums and guitars 'beats' faster.
love it.
can't find Taylor Swift's CD. can someone buy for me? i m going to ask kitmun la :)
hopefully she can! :D
texting her later
thats all.
Thursday, 27 December 2007
troubled.
ohh few updates I forgot to blog about.
i cut my hair yday. it was bad. lol. i feel like i got that kind of 90s popstar haircut.. which means that i think i going to gel my hair when i go out next time..
watched AVP2, it was okay... quite sad la... the pretty girl died. sigh...
cleaned the house abit.
fixed my old jeans.... i patched it again :P
i dunnt really knw what to blog ler. no pics no fun one.
i walked alot lor, everywhere.... which is good cos it means i can lose more weight.
but nth la...
quite sien also. :(
OHhh
i thought of something i can do which is to come out with this dream list of thigns i want that you guys can give me whenever.. lol
might prolly drop it here later... i thought of a few dy
i cut my hair yday. it was bad. lol. i feel like i got that kind of 90s popstar haircut.. which means that i think i going to gel my hair when i go out next time..
watched AVP2, it was okay... quite sad la... the pretty girl died. sigh...
cleaned the house abit.
fixed my old jeans.... i patched it again :P
i dunnt really knw what to blog ler. no pics no fun one.
i walked alot lor, everywhere.... which is good cos it means i can lose more weight.
but nth la...
quite sien also. :(
OHhh
i thought of something i can do which is to come out with this dream list of thigns i want that you guys can give me whenever.. lol
might prolly drop it here later... i thought of a few dy
Wednesday, 26 December 2007
camera
sister, can you leave me a comment here on how much isit the 795SAW with a 2gb card and an additional batt? here is about 1600ish. but then the only thing i worry about is the warranty, whether is it international one..?
hahha
am.. nothing else, been settling in at home. bought most of the necessity already, except for milk, which is alot compared to last time... hmmm
had a good day today, excited to meet up with the vts as well as the college ppl lorrr...
wont be updating s often alraedy.. will prolly do one when i got my camera :)
hahha
am.. nothing else, been settling in at home. bought most of the necessity already, except for milk, which is alot compared to last time... hmmm
had a good day today, excited to meet up with the vts as well as the college ppl lorrr...
wont be updating s often alraedy.. will prolly do one when i got my camera :)
Sunday, 23 December 2007
Taylor Swift - Teardrops On My Guitar
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
[Chorus:]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
[Repeat Chorus]
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.
goodbye adelaide.
finally. in another 12 hours I'll be boarding my plane back to kl.
Its been more than 10 months now. my anticipation has been high all the while till recently. I guess now I am feeling better about going back. Positivity!
Today rained most of the day again. I walked around uni for the last time. It was a pity to see that they are demolishing the Maths building. I was like.. Aww... .. The crane/machine was banging the 2nd floor's floor. Sigh. I wonder what it will be like when I come back..
Had lunch wit Mary, Godwin, Andrew and Karolina. Godwin surprised me with his soberness and seriousness, it freaked me out. We went to spices, I don't like my Drunken Noodle, mainly cos' i get sick of noodle after eating too much.
Then I went to Cleland. Because the bus doesnt come by to Crafers for another hour, I decided to walked up to the Botanic. It was lovely view, wished I had my sister's camera. I shouted (a bit) and just talked my heart out. The 'event' was energising and demoralising at the same time. Anyways, I went up, managed to buy the keychains and head home. :)
Now, I'm pretty much packed except passport, which will help me transfer my pics just incase... Everything else is in my luggage, box or bag.
'i think you made a rash decision'
Its been more than 10 months now. my anticipation has been high all the while till recently. I guess now I am feeling better about going back. Positivity!
Today rained most of the day again. I walked around uni for the last time. It was a pity to see that they are demolishing the Maths building. I was like.. Aww... .. The crane/machine was banging the 2nd floor's floor. Sigh. I wonder what it will be like when I come back..
Had lunch wit Mary, Godwin, Andrew and Karolina. Godwin surprised me with his soberness and seriousness, it freaked me out. We went to spices, I don't like my Drunken Noodle, mainly cos' i get sick of noodle after eating too much.
Then I went to Cleland. Because the bus doesnt come by to Crafers for another hour, I decided to walked up to the Botanic. It was lovely view, wished I had my sister's camera. I shouted (a bit) and just talked my heart out. The 'event' was energising and demoralising at the same time. Anyways, I went up, managed to buy the keychains and head home. :)
Now, I'm pretty much packed except passport, which will help me transfer my pics just incase... Everything else is in my luggage, box or bag.
'i think you made a rash decision'
Saturday, 22 December 2007
dream of you.
i was about to play an AFL game with this random guy through a PC in a classroom, but nothing happened.
Later i was MEANT to play an AFL CARD game with this old guy, it didnt happened as well.
I was waiting for him at this poolside/beachy area, when i was texting you. we were chatting. then you send me a text saying you ttyl or you can't talk already because you going to talk to a friend... at that time, i was contemplating whether to ask why cant you... i was thinking of i shouldnt because it has nothing to do with me but i want to know.. in the end i THOUGHT i asked.
later you replied saying 'this is going to be last time i talked to you, the next time will be a very long time lol'
I re read my text i sent to you, it said 'i dunno.. acomodable'
I wanted to write you a reply to explain, thats when I woke up
----Later i was MEANT to play an AFL CARD game with this old guy, it didnt happened as well.
I was waiting for him at this poolside/beachy area, when i was texting you. we were chatting. then you send me a text saying you ttyl or you can't talk already because you going to talk to a friend... at that time, i was contemplating whether to ask why cant you... i was thinking of i shouldnt because it has nothing to do with me but i want to know.. in the end i THOUGHT i asked.
later you replied saying 'this is going to be last time i talked to you, the next time will be a very long time lol'
I re read my text i sent to you, it said 'i dunno.. acomodable'
I wanted to write you a reply to explain, thats when I woke up
Don't even ask me what that means.
Friday, 21 December 2007
Sarah's Cafe... got shouted
The whole morning has been pouring rain.
Today, I had dinner with James, Marika and Romy (all ex-@ers). I've already went out with them a couple of times (Swish, Botanic and then now). I know James since the start of my @, Romy when she joined in Sem 2 last year, and Marika early this year as she was part of my team in State conference.
We had our dinner at this place called Sarah's Cafe. It is really different. They have this emphasis on sustainability, therefore they only cooked certain meals during certain hours, to save their wastage on cooking different food. So their menu is only like the type/portion to be served. And furthermore, its vegetarian restaurant. Really interesting ^_^
I walked around Hindley before I found the place because James told me LEE when it was Leigh. x_x
Anyways, we had a great time chatting. I never thought that I would enjoyed myself as much I did. We were mainly talking about James and his 'girl' lol... then just talking about random things. Romy will be going to France next year, James to Italy next year, wouldn't it be great if I can meet them there? lol.
At the end of the meal, Romy told me that they decided to shout me. :) lol I first came in contact with this term with Robbie and Jen when I used 'pay', which is a wrong term apparently.
Today, I had dinner with James, Marika and Romy (all ex-@ers). I've already went out with them a couple of times (Swish, Botanic and then now). I know James since the start of my @, Romy when she joined in Sem 2 last year, and Marika early this year as she was part of my team in State conference.
We had our dinner at this place called Sarah's Cafe. It is really different. They have this emphasis on sustainability, therefore they only cooked certain meals during certain hours, to save their wastage on cooking different food. So their menu is only like the type/portion to be served. And furthermore, its vegetarian restaurant. Really interesting ^_^
I walked around Hindley before I found the place because James told me LEE when it was Leigh. x_x
Anyways, we had a great time chatting. I never thought that I would enjoyed myself as much I did. We were mainly talking about James and his 'girl' lol... then just talking about random things. Romy will be going to France next year, James to Italy next year, wouldn't it be great if I can meet them there? lol.
At the end of the meal, Romy told me that they decided to shout me. :) lol I first came in contact with this term with Robbie and Jen when I used 'pay', which is a wrong term apparently.
James thinks the waiter is eccentric.
I find it funny how when we were parting ways the sisters were finding nicknames for James' special someone... pumpkin, cherry pie, sweetie, bubblegum LoL
'I know that we can't be together, but I just like to dream' Jem's Flying High
2 more days
at this time in two days' time i will be in the plane flying home hoping to reach on time to meet up with jiayin and have some good old time before i go to henglean's and ask him to lift me to kammo's to take the keys back home so i can have some sleeping time
i bought 9-9 10-10 dy the gifts.. left only the Cleland and chocs, which I ll do tmr. going out later with James Romy and Marika. going out TMR with Andrew and Mary
maybe meeting up with Eugene on Sunday and HOPEFULLY Jen will come by on Sunday morning too :)
I sorted out my bank and transcript stuff today.
I bought something for myself just awhile ago. My wine. Its called Church Block from McLaren Vale. Its my first wine, which I am only going to open on VERY VERY Special ocassion. So if you get to share it with me, then u must be very special. =)
Oh, I met karolina just now at Central Market. talked, hugs, laughed. :)
'Don't let it get to you' -quote from Karo
i bought 9-9 10-10 dy the gifts.. left only the Cleland and chocs, which I ll do tmr. going out later with James Romy and Marika. going out TMR with Andrew and Mary
maybe meeting up with Eugene on Sunday and HOPEFULLY Jen will come by on Sunday morning too :)
I sorted out my bank and transcript stuff today.
I bought something for myself just awhile ago. My wine. Its called Church Block from McLaren Vale. Its my first wine, which I am only going to open on VERY VERY Special ocassion. So if you get to share it with me, then u must be very special. =)
Oh, I met karolina just now at Central Market. talked, hugs, laughed. :)
'Don't let it get to you' -quote from Karo
another dream
its in adelaide as first. i was Haley joel osment, running away from this bad boss guy. i have this dust that i can blow in front of me and when i walk UNDERneath the dust I will be invisible, and I think when I go through the dust, time slows down that I manged to dodge bullets.
then after awhile 'fighting/running away from the enemy i then go back to the entrance. there everyones died, including the other baddie. this is where the bullet scratch part of my back abit...
then i used the dust to escape to outside, where i hid around to find out more information. finally ti managed to disguised somewhat and get close to the boss. i wanted to kill me but tak jadi.. ended up being exposed and had to run. i ran with my bag filled with my belongings.. i had to change bag at one point because they bugged my bag. by this time i was in somewhere near south tce & west tce alleys. i was walking towards nth tce. along the way i saw alot of badies, but they either cant see me or recognize me
i think the weirdest part is at the end, where we all are at this food court, its like an HQ
my dad closed nancy's dessert shop while i continue teaching ppl how to make i dunno what.my and a few other friends are tutors in this cooking class...
the dream ended with me lydia yl all wanting back nancy's dessert sop. its like we were suggesting to dad how good is this and that.... heheh
then after awhile 'fighting/running away from the enemy i then go back to the entrance. there everyones died, including the other baddie. this is where the bullet scratch part of my back abit...
then i used the dust to escape to outside, where i hid around to find out more information. finally ti managed to disguised somewhat and get close to the boss. i wanted to kill me but tak jadi.. ended up being exposed and had to run. i ran with my bag filled with my belongings.. i had to change bag at one point because they bugged my bag. by this time i was in somewhere near south tce & west tce alleys. i was walking towards nth tce. along the way i saw alot of badies, but they either cant see me or recognize me
i think the weirdest part is at the end, where we all are at this food court, its like an HQ
my dad closed nancy's dessert shop while i continue teaching ppl how to make i dunno what.my and a few other friends are tutors in this cooking class...
the dream ended with me lydia yl all wanting back nancy's dessert sop. its like we were suggesting to dad how good is this and that.... heheh
Thursday, 20 December 2007
disconnected.
sigh! can't really use the Passport yet cos' my pc is USB1.0 :(
maybe have to transfer to sister's pc then copy from there.. see how..
damn sad also, another thing is that I thought about it, buying camera will cost me about 1.2k, then if buy laptop also takes abt 4k... that means i might end up spending 5k. sigh. not good.
its still early today. in another 23 minutes its going to be two days to KL. I am afraid about a lot of things. loneliness would be right on top. all this thinking really made me consider coming back to adelaide/aussie, where in a way I feel 'safe'. I don't feel too strongly that way about Malaysia as I used to.
Jo Ann & family gave me my first bouquet of flowers two days back for graduation. its really lovely. daisies i think. :) i love daisies. they would be either my 2nd or 3rd fav flowers. 1st would be the side-act miniature decoration flowers . I love them. heaps.
i talked to Nancy yday and talked to Lydia today. I told Nancy how I felt positively about things but just now I felt really down when I talked to Lyddie. its a shame. how I am letting something beyond my control controls how I feel about myself.
Yee Li said that she didn't know I can pour out my heart out.. she thought it was for the money.. X_X ( i wish it was then i wud be $$ ) lol. but no, she was right. I don't think i wrote as deeply and heartly before this. Usually I wrote about happy things only. but since, *ahem*, it really... mmm started the spillage? hehe
I read Van's blog. I kinda wished I kept in touched with her, talking to her on msn etc. I wished I can meet up with her and see how she's going and all. I hope she is all good and well.
what else? I feel like taking a stroll along the residential area now. but its late and Jo Ann won't want me to. I might end up watching Spanish Apartment tonight. we'll see.
Sister helped me packed as well.. which is good... things that left to be stuffed into the luggage are my jacket, other clothes, my toiletries, Hon Seng's coffee guy and my HDDs.
'I won't move, I won't run,
I'll stand here, still, waiting for you to act
I might hide, I might flee then
But as of now, this is where I stand,
This is where I will be when you want to find me,
Filled with mixed emotions towards you,
I don't know what I'll do when I see you,
But I have to be brave and face you
Cos' if I don't,
I'll be waiting here forever.'
Nobody can take away your bliss. i heard/read this from somewhere b4...
maybe have to transfer to sister's pc then copy from there.. see how..
damn sad also, another thing is that I thought about it, buying camera will cost me about 1.2k, then if buy laptop also takes abt 4k... that means i might end up spending 5k. sigh. not good.
its still early today. in another 23 minutes its going to be two days to KL. I am afraid about a lot of things. loneliness would be right on top. all this thinking really made me consider coming back to adelaide/aussie, where in a way I feel 'safe'. I don't feel too strongly that way about Malaysia as I used to.
Jo Ann & family gave me my first bouquet of flowers two days back for graduation. its really lovely. daisies i think. :) i love daisies. they would be either my 2nd or 3rd fav flowers. 1st would be the side-act miniature decoration flowers . I love them. heaps.
i talked to Nancy yday and talked to Lydia today. I told Nancy how I felt positively about things but just now I felt really down when I talked to Lyddie. its a shame. how I am letting something beyond my control controls how I feel about myself.
Yee Li said that she didn't know I can pour out my heart out.. she thought it was for the money.. X_X ( i wish it was then i wud be $$ ) lol. but no, she was right. I don't think i wrote as deeply and heartly before this. Usually I wrote about happy things only. but since, *ahem*, it really... mmm started the spillage? hehe
I read Van's blog. I kinda wished I kept in touched with her, talking to her on msn etc. I wished I can meet up with her and see how she's going and all. I hope she is all good and well.
what else? I feel like taking a stroll along the residential area now. but its late and Jo Ann won't want me to. I might end up watching Spanish Apartment tonight. we'll see.
Sister helped me packed as well.. which is good... things that left to be stuffed into the luggage are my jacket, other clothes, my toiletries, Hon Seng's coffee guy and my HDDs.
'I won't move, I won't run,
I'll stand here, still, waiting for you to act
I might hide, I might flee then
But as of now, this is where I stand,
This is where I will be when you want to find me,
Filled with mixed emotions towards you,
I don't know what I'll do when I see you,
But I have to be brave and face you
Cos' if I don't,
I'll be waiting here forever.'
Nobody can take away your bliss. i heard/read this from somewhere b4...
Thank You Big & Lil' Sis
I got a present from both my sisters today!!! For my graduation :D. And guess what it is?!? Its soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo USEFUL!!! its gonna ease my work of stealing stuff from friends as well as giving them some of mine stuff................
WD Passport 160GB
HOW INSANE IS THAT?!? lol. Look at the size (below)
What a useful gift which I can carried it around the world. lol :) Now, I only need to bring my missus' brain home in the passport!!
Sigh.. kinda sad though.. its like.. my mistress has been with me for so long, so long. I really wished I could bring her home, upgrade her and keep on using her. But sigh... going to miss her, she is very reliable to me! :)
So I guess, I'll transfer all the files into this mini passport, and MAYBE bring back ONE hdd. just incase the one at home is not workable. lol
=)
THANK YOU sisters! :) Its going to be a VERY useful gadget!
Good times ahead. I've also sorta packed 8 8 - 9 9 already. Now what's left are a bit more gifts and my hdd. My clothes are all tucked in except my jacket.
Hmm tmr going to buy the gift for hl (sighh so exx), for jy (keychain most likely), for kammo and some chocs la. and keychains from Cleland =)
Thats the one i want most!
WD Passport 160GB
HOW INSANE IS THAT?!? lol. Look at the size (below)
What a useful gift which I can carried it around the world. lol :) Now, I only need to bring my missus' brain home in the passport!!
Sigh.. kinda sad though.. its like.. my mistress has been with me for so long, so long. I really wished I could bring her home, upgrade her and keep on using her. But sigh... going to miss her, she is very reliable to me! :)
So I guess, I'll transfer all the files into this mini passport, and MAYBE bring back ONE hdd. just incase the one at home is not workable. lol
=)
THANK YOU sisters! :) Its going to be a VERY useful gadget!
Good times ahead. I've also sorta packed 8 8 - 9 9 already. Now what's left are a bit more gifts and my hdd. My clothes are all tucked in except my jacket.
Hmm tmr going to buy the gift for hl (sighh so exx), for jy (keychain most likely), for kammo and some chocs la. and keychains from Cleland =)
Thats the one i want most!
Wednesday, 19 December 2007
photoful
due to number of photos, they will all in small size
except this one..... I'm a Graduate :D
Faith & Moon on Monday :)
December 18 - Graduation Day
Breakfast at Kowloon.. again.. (had dinner there the night b4)
photos during post graduation
Francis, Leanne, me & Jason
Cathy, RuShan & YJ
Dinner @ Steamboat place..
JY & Xuna Random Photo
Kat, Jackie & Lauryn
except this one..... I'm a Graduate :D
(it makes me wonder am I going to have to photocopy my cert into A4 size to bring to interview etc, or do i leave the size just the way it is? (A) )
Faith & Moon on Monday :)December 18 - Graduation Day
I think that in the morning, after I collected my gown from Regalia Shop at Carrington St, when I was walking home, someone tried to hit me with an apple. REALLY. It was like, I stopped awhile, then I saw something flashed across my eyes then when I looked to the left, I saw an apple rolling on the floor. T_T
Breakfast at Kowloon.. again.. (had dinner there the night b4)Graduation was good. The guest speaker's speech is something I can relate and feel about. It was really funny hearing Barry pronouncing names.. lol
I sat next to Phoebe. Phoebe is this girl that I saw since last year I think. She is a girl I REALLY THINK LOOKS LIKE HEBE. =D lol. She's Korean. Kinda funny how we ended up chatting more than I thought we ever could.
I sat next to Phoebe. Phoebe is this girl that I saw since last year I think. She is a girl I REALLY THINK LOOKS LIKE HEBE. =D lol. She's Korean. Kinda funny how we ended up chatting more than I thought we ever could.
photos during post graduation
Dinner @ Steamboat place..
Met Rain there when we were about to leave. Also very strange. thats the first time I talked to her. lol It was OK, just seeing hws she enjoying her work, and that we shd get togehter when I come back to Adelaide, she Leann Rushan and Seen Ying.
Lemon Cheesecake sis ordered at Cocolat
December 19 - Farewell Dinner at Hog's Breath
I went out for lunch with Justin. It was really nice, I think its the second house I've been into. The first one was Lauryn's a month ago.
Lemon Cheesecake sis ordered at CocolatDecember 19 - Farewell Dinner at Hog's Breath
I went out for lunch with Justin. It was really nice, I think its the second house I've been into. The first one was Lauryn's a month ago.
Robbie, Jackie, Sui Rob & I table
JY & Xuna Random Photo
Mr Ho, Eugene & Sui
Kevin & Faith
This is what I ordered, Calamari Steak. It was GOOD... UNTIL GODWIN finished up whats about 1/4 of my steak when I walked Lauryn to Stella. He bought me jagerbomb after that which was okay :) hahahaa.. I think its like a really nice way of wrapping things up.
I ended up walking Katherine to HQ. It was nice catching up with things, and u all shd know by now how much i like to talk..
After that, i walked back to CIBOs (which is the same st as Hogs Breath) to collect my card from Sui.. i texted her saying how sad I was for not getting a card (cos she passed to everyone else except me.. )
I ended up walking Katherine to HQ. It was nice catching up with things, and u all shd know by now how much i like to talk..
After that, i walked back to CIBOs (which is the same st as Hogs Breath) to collect my card from Sui.. i texted her saying how sad I was for not getting a card (cos she passed to everyone else except me.. )
'its difficult when you know what you want but there is something else which is more meaningful to you'
Tuesday, 18 December 2007
other things on my mind
for kammmo.. lolwill post grad stuff another day.
thanks big sis for the hug. really need it now.
i thought abt something this morning. everything has both sides right? (pros & cons). u can choose and try to look things brightly. but when something made u feel down, things that can be seen as having equal pros and cons can be looked upon as something negative lor
i m not sure if u understand. its like... there are things that u should be happy for, but because u r down, its like oh, just another thing.. thats all. but if u r feeling ok/good.. you might go 'how exciting'
mmm.
li lin, what u said today, about what you need. i know you are right. i think its better for the both of us.
---
anyways
I realized i need to reset my expectation of what msia is going to be like for me. just now, i had a major knock on my head that it might not be as what i thought it will be...
i have accepted the following:
no car *check
supporting my own living *check
going to be hell alone and lonely at home *sighh... check (lol)
thats all.. with friends.. i did thought abt it, like if they are not going back... will i still go back? the answer is yes i would. but now the question i need to pose to myself is what if you no longer can talk to them? i think thats hw i m feeling about some of them lor. and not that its their fault or wtv, its just that we are different people. i alwys thought that we ll have a good time, going out on weekends etc and work during weekdays. but it all seem so blurry now
but one thing as well is that am i going to rely on friends everytime we go out? YES.. lol maybe i ll just try not to go out as often lo... i m hoping to borrow kammo's car only when karo is here lor, other than that i dunt really mind not having a car
i already plan to bike ard d maa... weekend go sleepover at friends or cousin's place. weekday balik to rumah kosong.
hahah maybe AIESEC in kl can help me reintegrate back to their culture. helping them to run exchange sessions.. i ll prolly bring the photos of chloe and soph for them to see, and andrea, godwin and Cicy too. and some conference pics if any
i think, whats going to happen in the next 3 months are going to be crucial , life changing to me.
oh yeah! hehe.. i wrote a post, i really want to post it, but i know if i post it then theres no turning back, so i m writing tis to make me feel as if i posted it already even if i didnt so yeah... its all GOOD.
i thought abt something this morning. everything has both sides right? (pros & cons). u can choose and try to look things brightly. but when something made u feel down, things that can be seen as having equal pros and cons can be looked upon as something negative lor
i m not sure if u understand. its like... there are things that u should be happy for, but because u r down, its like oh, just another thing.. thats all. but if u r feeling ok/good.. you might go 'how exciting'
mmm.
li lin, what u said today, about what you need. i know you are right. i think its better for the both of us.
---
anyways
I realized i need to reset my expectation of what msia is going to be like for me. just now, i had a major knock on my head that it might not be as what i thought it will be...
i have accepted the following:
no car *check
supporting my own living *check
going to be hell alone and lonely at home *sighh... check (lol)
thats all.. with friends.. i did thought abt it, like if they are not going back... will i still go back? the answer is yes i would. but now the question i need to pose to myself is what if you no longer can talk to them? i think thats hw i m feeling about some of them lor. and not that its their fault or wtv, its just that we are different people. i alwys thought that we ll have a good time, going out on weekends etc and work during weekdays. but it all seem so blurry now
but one thing as well is that am i going to rely on friends everytime we go out? YES.. lol maybe i ll just try not to go out as often lo... i m hoping to borrow kammo's car only when karo is here lor, other than that i dunt really mind not having a car
i already plan to bike ard d maa... weekend go sleepover at friends or cousin's place. weekday balik to rumah kosong.
hahah maybe AIESEC in kl can help me reintegrate back to their culture. helping them to run exchange sessions.. i ll prolly bring the photos of chloe and soph for them to see, and andrea, godwin and Cicy too. and some conference pics if any
i think, whats going to happen in the next 3 months are going to be crucial , life changing to me.
oh yeah! hehe.. i wrote a post, i really want to post it, but i know if i post it then theres no turning back, so i m writing tis to make me feel as if i posted it already even if i didnt so yeah... its all GOOD.
Beautiful
Artistic
'When you look up'
'and i thought that i am OK '
Monday, 17 December 2007
i am losing myself.
dad arrived dy, it was OK. talked a lot to him. more than usual. maybe cos' i m wee bit grown up. its 11pm. he is asleep already. :( I can't PC as long as i would want to now. i feel bad if i did.
tmr is my grad. still no feelings.
i m really disappointed with myself.
my dad asked me to go to brissy b4 going back. i might, if kitmun and yl are there.. lol otherwise i rather go home.
i really like my dad. when i'm young he is my hero. really. i looked up to him a lot. things happened since my mum passed away and we tried to reconcile but its different now. i only wished i could love him more and give him things that he wants from me.
I wanted to hug my sister today too. I never hug her before since she left to aussie the first time. Today, at Coles, it started to hit me that I am not going to stay with her anymore, not in the next few years. I felt really sad and I really wanted to give a hug then. But I didn't :(. Will give her big one tmr.
Then that made me think abt big sis in LA. If she is here now too I would hug her. She's been a great big sis though bossy but she is still my sis. I would hug both of them tight!!
*sniffs* hehe i have tears running down my eyes.. (well, walking down my eyes :P)
all i m saying, is that I kinda regret not showing how much i feel for them at times when it really mattered.
'Cause when i try to talk to you
I feel like I'm not getting through you
Where did we go wrong
It's hard to be strong
When I talk...
When I talk to you'
Mandy Moore's When I Talk To You. (i have this song's lyric in my blog b4, i find this song really meaningful and touching, it saddens me)
tmr is my grad. still no feelings.
i m really disappointed with myself.
my dad asked me to go to brissy b4 going back. i might, if kitmun and yl are there.. lol otherwise i rather go home.
i really like my dad. when i'm young he is my hero. really. i looked up to him a lot. things happened since my mum passed away and we tried to reconcile but its different now. i only wished i could love him more and give him things that he wants from me.
I wanted to hug my sister today too. I never hug her before since she left to aussie the first time. Today, at Coles, it started to hit me that I am not going to stay with her anymore, not in the next few years. I felt really sad and I really wanted to give a hug then. But I didn't :(. Will give her big one tmr.
Then that made me think abt big sis in LA. If she is here now too I would hug her. She's been a great big sis though bossy but she is still my sis. I would hug both of them tight!!
*sniffs* hehe i have tears running down my eyes.. (well, walking down my eyes :P)
all i m saying, is that I kinda regret not showing how much i feel for them at times when it really mattered.
'Cause when i try to talk to you
I feel like I'm not getting through you
Where did we go wrong
It's hard to be strong
When I talk...
When I talk to you'
Mandy Moore's When I Talk To You. (i have this song's lyric in my blog b4, i find this song really meaningful and touching, it saddens me)
dead nights.
my odd-night sessions of waking up and playing PC will have to take a halt for the moment, as my dad is arriving in 4 hrs. he ll be sleeping in the same room as I am, and I ll be lucky if I can even stay on the PC till 1ish. lol
bright side: gets me to do other non-PC things which i can do in KL.
dark side: lost of communication/social interaction with close friends
anyways, my grad is tmr. i dont have any feelings for it. really. dunno.. maybe cos like things like this in life must be shared with good pals =). i'll fly you in if you want. yes, YOU. PLEASE be my pal.. *wink
I hope to meet up with Robbie and Anne tmr, take some shots with them.
hmm.. today? oh, Faith & Moon =) Faith was late, but Moon was latest. lol
updates?
trip 1 - VTs 9-9,10-10 dy kua.. easiest.. hehehee
trip 2 - road trip - dunno whos going, dunno where to go, got the date dy, but now have to change again. but at least we know the dates we cant do... (anything after jan 12 is no no). so hopefully can draft something out la.. at least we got the content of the trip dy :)
trip 3 - HELP girls (sigh) - mm penang/singapore. dates might be prob for this one.
trip 4 - karo..*blank* .. lol.. i dunno.. Langkawi.. Twin Towers, KL towers, shopping here and there... eat eat eat... karaoke... midnight life etc... i dunno.. anything kua maybe take her to Pangkor and melaka would be ideal
=)
' i want to see the whole world, but i don't want to do it alone'
bright side: gets me to do other non-PC things which i can do in KL.
dark side: lost of communication/social interaction with close friends
anyways, my grad is tmr. i dont have any feelings for it. really. dunno.. maybe cos like things like this in life must be shared with good pals =). i'll fly you in if you want. yes, YOU. PLEASE be my pal.. *wink
I hope to meet up with Robbie and Anne tmr, take some shots with them.
hmm.. today? oh, Faith & Moon =) Faith was late, but Moon was latest. lol
updates?
trip 1 - VTs 9-9,10-10 dy kua.. easiest.. hehehee
trip 2 - road trip - dunno whos going, dunno where to go, got the date dy, but now have to change again. but at least we know the dates we cant do... (anything after jan 12 is no no). so hopefully can draft something out la.. at least we got the content of the trip dy :)
trip 3 - HELP girls (sigh) - mm penang/singapore. dates might be prob for this one.
trip 4 - karo..*blank* .. lol.. i dunno.. Langkawi.. Twin Towers, KL towers, shopping here and there... eat eat eat... karaoke... midnight life etc... i dunno.. anything kua maybe take her to Pangkor and melaka would be ideal
=)
' i want to see the whole world, but i don't want to do it alone'
chubbier.
my face is plum now. :( dunno why also. i think i realised this during exam period... when i webcam with li lin.. i thought it was nothing.. but now quite clear lorrr..
i think someone who has a chubby body is not as bad as having a chubby face :(
u know u got a chubby face when u open ur mouth (ur jaw goes downwards), and u can grab a hold of ur face meat near the neck area..
i am worried!!! i mean.. summo when i go back KL that time sure eat alot more one... how??
=(
Looking for jogging/walking partner in KL. Daily walks, evening/morning negotiable. Please contact me at 012-3376755.
Note: preferably Hot Chicks... and I am NOT talking about Nandos. :P
- i really ifnd it funny today at the park with Andrea. I mean, its really interesting to hear them speak in Portuguese. And I thought her friend Josie is an Australian. heh
my ipod shuffle is working again, all i need to do was to reinstall the software... lol i didnt realised i have that option till i read the manual again..
oh and camera in KL is cheaper. going back to buy :)
end of story! lol
now i only got two luggage to bring home. so easy. save money also. but i m leaving my comforter here.. most likely. among all the bed time items, pillow, bolster and comforter, i find the laast one most useful, u can wrap yourself in it, or around it (bolster) or fold it into a pillow.
^_^
' One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
Waiting to find a way back to you
Cause that's where I'm home'
Michelle Branch's One of These Days
i think someone who has a chubby body is not as bad as having a chubby face :(
u know u got a chubby face when u open ur mouth (ur jaw goes downwards), and u can grab a hold of ur face meat near the neck area..
i am worried!!! i mean.. summo when i go back KL that time sure eat alot more one... how??
=(
Looking for jogging/walking partner in KL. Daily walks, evening/morning negotiable. Please contact me at 012-3376755.
Note: preferably Hot Chicks... and I am NOT talking about Nandos. :P
- i really ifnd it funny today at the park with Andrea. I mean, its really interesting to hear them speak in Portuguese. And I thought her friend Josie is an Australian. heh
my ipod shuffle is working again, all i need to do was to reinstall the software... lol i didnt realised i have that option till i read the manual again..
oh and camera in KL is cheaper. going back to buy :)
end of story! lol
now i only got two luggage to bring home. so easy. save money also. but i m leaving my comforter here.. most likely. among all the bed time items, pillow, bolster and comforter, i find the laast one most useful, u can wrap yourself in it, or around it (bolster) or fold it into a pillow.
^_^
' One of these days
I won't be afraid of staying with you
I hope and I pray
Waiting to find a way back to you
Cause that's where I'm home'
Michelle Branch's One of These Days
Sunday, 16 December 2007
tired. really tired.
i am sleepy now. i think maybe cos' i walked the whole day, woke up sixish then go back to sleep b4 waking up tenish.
liverpool lost. bah! frustrated
played too much human pet.. tired eyes
now im mentally tired.
meeting up with moon and faith tmr :)
i wanna go online, but im tired.
sleep
dad coming tmr.... day going to be long dy.. sighhh
i wish for alot of things.
liverpool lost. bah! frustrated
played too much human pet.. tired eyes
now im mentally tired.
meeting up with moon and faith tmr :)
i wanna go online, but im tired.
sleep
dad coming tmr.... day going to be long dy.. sighhh
i wish for alot of things.
ching may lol.
i had this dream about this shopping mall. you have all sorts of thing. its like at this one area, its like shopping mall/wild life theme park kinda thing. its not really like mammals kind of wild life, ti think they have like scorpions roaming around the place, then u can see some aquatic animals underneath the floor (its a glass floor)
i thikn there is this one part where everyone i splaying chess/ board games, and cm and i decided to play. the pieces were really random, i got a proper one and it was black. cm's however is like monopoly houses, but smaller, in colors of red, yellow and green. then there was this guy who i think is ching may's friend sitting nearby talking to us whilewe play.
i think like ching may said something about how i goof aroud people and something like that thats why she don't trust me being alone (w/o her) with her friends.
ii this thats the part that i can recall.. maybe cos its really really weird to have ching may in my dreams.. lol
today is.. sunday, going out later to meet up with andrea for picnic, but i ll prolly just take some photos, talk to herfor abit and leave. I might go around city buying stuff to bring home i guess
things to buy
chocs (for general friends lol)
hl's musem piece
jy's something (still thinking)
kammo n jo's chocs... hope its cheap ler
=)
i thikn there is this one part where everyone i splaying chess/ board games, and cm and i decided to play. the pieces were really random, i got a proper one and it was black. cm's however is like monopoly houses, but smaller, in colors of red, yellow and green. then there was this guy who i think is ching may's friend sitting nearby talking to us whilewe play.
i think like ching may said something about how i goof aroud people and something like that thats why she don't trust me being alone (w/o her) with her friends.
ii this thats the part that i can recall.. maybe cos its really really weird to have ching may in my dreams.. lol
today is.. sunday, going out later to meet up with andrea for picnic, but i ll prolly just take some photos, talk to herfor abit and leave. I might go around city buying stuff to bring home i guess
things to buy
chocs (for general friends lol)
hl's musem piece
jy's something (still thinking)
kammo n jo's chocs... hope its cheap ler
=)
Saturday, 15 December 2007
i am 21.
Min Li used the word 'only'. I think 21 is a fair age, no longer only.
Everyone should start working by now.
Some people already did 2-3 years back.
4 yrs on you'll be in your mid 20s and living your adult life.
And when are you planning to have a family? Children, any?
I am already 21. What am I gonna do about it?
I have plans, but they are just plans.
3 yrs of working in Public accounting for the CA, then up the corporate ladder I go.
Open a company/organisation in the future with emphasis on environment & corporate social responsibility
Relationship wise, I think I am looking to have a stable and steady relationship by 24-26.
Everyone should start working by now.
Some people already did 2-3 years back.
4 yrs on you'll be in your mid 20s and living your adult life.
And when are you planning to have a family? Children, any?
I am already 21. What am I gonna do about it?
I have plans, but they are just plans.
3 yrs of working in Public accounting for the CA, then up the corporate ladder I go.
Open a company/organisation in the future with emphasis on environment & corporate social responsibility
Relationship wise, I think I am looking to have a stable and steady relationship by 24-26.
less blogging than before
i've just checked my previous posts, e.g. last years. Some of them feels like it was just not too long ago I had that dream (I blog about my dreams every nw and then, so yeah).
Also, by numbers, I've blogged less this year compare to the last two. I think only this month i've been blogging more.. cos' I am leaving home and etc. :P
i've just finished watching HERO.
now what do I want to do? I don't know. hehe.. i'm on9 now but not chatting with anyone. Maybe i'll go offline and come back later. for the moment, i prolly continue drawing stuffs...
and your eyes goes O.O
lol
i cut bits of my hair today. i don't think it look too much diff, which is good.. I cut bits of my left top front and sideburns.
'I open myself to you to let you into me, to hope you understand who am I, not to overwhelm you'
Also, by numbers, I've blogged less this year compare to the last two. I think only this month i've been blogging more.. cos' I am leaving home and etc. :P
i've just finished watching HERO.
now what do I want to do? I don't know. hehe.. i'm on9 now but not chatting with anyone. Maybe i'll go offline and come back later. for the moment, i prolly continue drawing stuffs...
and your eyes goes O.O
lol
i cut bits of my hair today. i don't think it look too much diff, which is good.. I cut bits of my left top front and sideburns.
'I open myself to you to let you into me, to hope you understand who am I, not to overwhelm you'
walk
"i want to walk side by side with you, holding hands.
if i walked too fast, tell me and i'll walk slower.
if i am behind you, take a deep Breath and I'll be next to you."
lines that came to me when I was walking, but kinda like.. unreal. Cos' its impossible that you can't see that you are walking too fast/slow.
I think that when it comes to forgiving things, I have a hard time letting things go. I choose to make it difficult for myself to forgive myself. This is bad cos' in my POV I think that you must always forgive yourself and move on. If you don't, you only make yourself & others suffer "pains" that are not necessary.
I think like, I am kinda useless when it comes to making ppl feel better. Its like, I need that someone to make some effort as well. (I know that in the end you do NEED that person to make an effort, cos' if she/he dont want to feel better, you can't do anything). But I know that I am not as good as I should be.
You know, in life, I am not really determined about a lot of things. I don't mind if things doesn't happen and I always let those slipped away from me. I guess thats one of the disadvantage of being positive all the time. Hopefully, I can be a more determined person and strive hard for what I want.
I am really tired. Not physically. But I know that I will be better. =)
Yesterday was a 'day'. But its just a day now.
I want to just close my eyes.
if i walked too fast, tell me and i'll walk slower.
if i am behind you, take a deep Breath and I'll be next to you."
lines that came to me when I was walking, but kinda like.. unreal. Cos' its impossible that you can't see that you are walking too fast/slow.
I think that when it comes to forgiving things, I have a hard time letting things go. I choose to make it difficult for myself to forgive myself. This is bad cos' in my POV I think that you must always forgive yourself and move on. If you don't, you only make yourself & others suffer "pains" that are not necessary.
I think like, I am kinda useless when it comes to making ppl feel better. Its like, I need that someone to make some effort as well. (I know that in the end you do NEED that person to make an effort, cos' if she/he dont want to feel better, you can't do anything). But I know that I am not as good as I should be.
You know, in life, I am not really determined about a lot of things. I don't mind if things doesn't happen and I always let those slipped away from me. I guess thats one of the disadvantage of being positive all the time. Hopefully, I can be a more determined person and strive hard for what I want.
I am really tired. Not physically. But I know that I will be better. =)
Yesterday was a 'day'. But its just a day now.
I want to just close my eyes.
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